I wake up. I look at the clock, it's 9:12 am
"Shit!!" I yell. I put my PJ shorts on and dash outside and stop to see my Dad and Garth talking. They stop talking the second I come out.
"Lillith! Are you okay sweetie?? What happened?!" My dad says. He looks so shocked and worried about me.
"Yeah, I'm fine. It's nothing" I say nervously. I can barely breathe. I can't look at Garth without my stomach going in circles. What's happening to me?!
"What do you mean it's nothing?! You- you weren't you last night! You were acting different I barely recognized you!" Garth barks at me. Concerned about me.
"No really, I'm fine. I swear" I say shaking, trying not to cry. What the fuck is wrong with me?! Okay I got to get myself together or I'm gonna collapse. I'm not bipolar am I?!?
No because I got out of bed, so I can't be...ughhhhh.
"Are you sure?" My dad says really concerned for me and my mental health.
"Yes. I'm fine okay?!!" I bark at them. I'm really trying to keep my cool right now.
People are looking at me like I have some kind of mental problem. I go and get my work stuff on and approach a costumer.
"Hi, whatcha looking for there, Sweets?" While trembling. Do I have like depression anxiety or some shit?!
Ugh could my life get any worse? Wait I take it back, I don't wanna jinx it.
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It's 6:00 o'clock. My hands are full of charcoal and ash.
We had to make Garth work full time because of the whole thing with the King. He used to work for 6:00 AM to 12:00 PM. But now he works from 6:00 AM to 6:00 pm. So I have to be around him all day everyday. We just finished working and Dads cleaning up for tomorrow.
At the rate we're at while have to work everyday and forget about having Sunday and Monday off. I'm cleaning off my hands outside by the well.
Garth walks over looking like he's worried and concerned about me. Great his gonna be all
"Lillith talk to me blah blah blah" I don't want to talk! Ugh.
"Lillith. What's wrong? You've never acted so strange. I know you don't wanna talk but I'm not gonna stop trying to make you. What the actual hell is wrong?!" Garth says. I look him with an annoyed agitated look of my face.
"I already told you. I don't want to talk about it!!" I say annoyed but voice trembles when I said "Told you" .
"Lillith. Stop being so stubborn! Why won't you talk to me?!" Garth argues.
"It's personal okay?! I don't even know what's wrong! So it's kinda hard to tell you if I don't even know! Just leave me alone." I bitch back at him. And walk away angrily.
Garth just looks at me while I storm away. He looks really worried about me. He's never cared about anything, so much! And it doesn't make my situation any better! Why can't he just not care like always?! What happened to that stupid jerk I knew?
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Okay its 12:13 AM. God I should be sleeping by now!! Well here we go again...going to the park for a walk. I swear to God if Garths there I'm gonna go metal.
I get to the park and I'm walking over to my favourite tree. Wait- theres a figure standing there! If thats Garth I'm turning back. I approach the figure. I'm about 10 feet away from them. And...I see a short guys with curly hair. I'm leaving!
"Wait! Come back or I swear to god!" Say the figure. Yep, thats Garth. I start running. And he starts running.
The thing is he's a really fast runner...and he tackles me. I fall to the ground on my back. And he tumbles right over top of me. He looks me in the eye. I try to push him off of me. But he's way to strong.
"Ah! No you're not going anywhere" he says as I try to escape.
"Let me go!" I yell at him as I struggle to get out. He won't let me go!! Ahh!
"You're not going anywhere until we
talk" he says.
"Stop! Urrrg get off asshole" I yell at him. The look on his face after I call him an asshole is shocking. He looks upset.
"Garth, what happened to you?!" I yap at him. Shit, why did I do that?
"What do you mean?" Garth says.
"You've changed.." i say nervously. Me and my big fucking mouth!
"Lillith..what the actual fuck are you going on about?" Garth snaps at me.
I can barely get words out of my mouth I'm so nervous!
"WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH?" Shit it slipped...I cover my mouth. He looks at me embarrassed and nervously.
"You care about me and what's going on in my life. Why?" I say...you know what I should just not open my mouth ever! I'm...ugh.
"I-I don't actually know.." He says nervously.
"You don't know?!" I bark at him. I slap him in the face as hard as I can.
"Oh my god I'm so sorry!!" I apologize. I cover my mouth. I'm so shocked..I don't know why I did that. Ughh what's happening to me.
"It's f- it's okay" he stutters collecting himself.
"I'm sorry I- I have to go" I say. I walk away covering my mouth trying not to cry.
What hell, why am I so emotional. I get home. I come into our little living room smiling so my dad thinks I'm okay. Our living room has a couch a tv and a little kitchen.
It's lit up with candle lights that are in little holders on the wall. My dads sitting on the couch and he turns to look at me as I come in.
"Hey, honey. Are you okay?" My dad says.
"Yeah I'm fine" I smile at him.
"I'll be in room if you need me" I continue. I walk to my room and close my door behind me.
I sit on my bed and pick up my diary. No, I don't write about my problems. This is my old diary. From when I was 13.
"Hey diary. My names Lillith and I'm 12 years old, I'm turning 13 in 2 mouths! I'm really scared. But anyways. Me and my family are going for a hike today. With my brother / best friend Alex, my Mom Stephanie and my Dad James. We're going up to the Disa Mountains to see the waterfalls. It's gonna be so much fun!
Hey I'm back from my hike. My brother was so sweet and got me an ice-"
I stop reading and put down my diary. I cover my nose, tearing up like a big baby. I can't take this anymore!
I lay there in bed crying
End of chapter 5 :)
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Lilith
RomanceLilith is a young elfin girl with a simple life, doesn't go to school so she can support her Father, she doesn't have very many friends, or much of a social life, when she meets Garth. But things get a little complicated, her Father is forced to mak...
