Ponder// Miniminter x reader

Part 8

December

You still haven't said anything about seeing Simon's grave. You still saw him throughout the house, in the flesh. Hes always warm and happy and smells good...

You were in love with him.

You were in love with a dead man, his ghost.

For example, you lay in his room while he's playing GTA. Just him because none of the other were available, but you knew its because he isn't alive. Funny thing is, Vik can see Simon like you can, but why can't the others see him?

"Dammit!" Simon suddenly burst as you peer around him to see he had died and re-spawned, how ironic.

"Nah, screw this!" He shouts and leaves the match, slamming his controller onto the desk and taking a deep breathe.

You decide to confront him. Again, how ironic. You roll out of bed and walk over to him, snaking your arms around his shoulder to hug his chest. You lay your head on the top of his as his heartbeat slows down and his breathing because steady. You close your eyes, embracing his smell and warmth.

"Y/n?" You hear him mumble.

"Hmm?" You hum, your arms and head staying in place.

"I need to tell you something," He says quietly. You open your eyes and remove yourself from him as he spins to face you. He looks up to you with wide, nervous eyes. He subconsciously playing with the strings of his hoodie as he tries to find the right words.

"That night, I..." he stumbles, gulping nervously. "I thought I left for my parents, but i didn't, i stayed."

"I couldn't remember until-until," He says hesitantly.

"Until I saw you slit your wrists," He breaks, blinking as he drops his head as the tears began to fall.

"I died, Y/n," He says, his voice cracking and your heart breaking. He breathes unsteadily as he continues, trying to calm himself down.

"I tried to protect you, i failed, and now I'm a dead man walking, and you can't speak," He says, releasing a few sobs as he stares up at you with a broken face. Your chest ached as you reach out and dry his tears. He grabs your hips and pulls you onto his lap as he buries his face into your neck adn you feel the tears gather there. Your running your fingers through his hair trying to soothe him as he continues.

"And you know the worst part?"

"What?" You whisper quietly. He jumps away from your neck and looks at you with wide eyes.

"You can speak," He says, jumping off track from what he was going to reveal.

You nod with a small smile as you wipe away another tear that escaped Simon's eyes.

"I'm in love with you, Y/n,"

"I'm in love with you too, Simon,"

"I'm forced to deal with what I feel, there is no distraction to mask what is real,"

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I know its short, but ill try to have the next part up by tomorrow, sorry it's so short. I also haven't updated it in a while i needed to update.

Perhaps maybe a steamy chapter next, to make it up to you???