One Hundred Sleepless Nights With Him

Day.40

Jade's pov

My lungs beg for air as I shoot up in bed. Quickly I take in as much air as I possibly can. As my heart rate quickens and my hands shake I get out of bed. I need to get out of here something isn't right. I look around the room and start noticing subtle differences.

The once black and grey walls were now just black. My bed was on the right side instead of the middle and the sheets that were just wrapped around me were grey. There was a dark purple rug placed in the middle of room that wasn't there before. The mirror that once stood tall on the right side of my room was now shattered and to the left.

None of this is right.

I gasp as I catch a glimpse of myself in one of the shards, even I was different. I looked the opposite of me. My black and white hair was now black were the white should be and vise versa. My normally pale complexion was now a sun kissed tan. My sliver eyes had now become honey brown puddles. This isn't me. This can't be me. I know what I like like a d this isn't it.

'They all need to die', I jump back in shock as the mirror me talks.

'They need to pay for what they did to us'.

I scream as I see body parts slowly seep out of the cracks in the mirror. First a leg then a hand then the other leg and hand and finally a head. Stood before me now was me but not me at the same time.

'They dont deserve the life they were given so you should take it from it them', I- no  she says reaching out to touch me.

"No no please don't, leave me alone", I cry out in a mix of shock and fear.

What's happening? Why is there is there another me? Where am I even?

The other me smiles and grand my arm, "confused? Do you wanna know where you are? Or is that you want to know who I am? Oh wait I know it's both" she laughs as her hand sinks into my skin.

Then a scream rings in the air and then hangs at a final pitch. I don't realize that the scream is coming from me until I feel it scratch against my throat. The scream burns is way out of my throat as more and more of the other me sinks into my body.

Then I'm face to face with my self as she smiles a crazed smile. It was at that moment that I noticed the blood dripping from her mouth. I didn't have time to think much about the blood because as soon as I knew it the blood was coming from my own mouth.

The metallic taste filled my mouth as I choked. I couldn't breathe it was like the blood was cutting off all my airways. Coughing I try my best to spit out as much as can. My vision is going going fuzzy and my body feels numb. Then everything goes dark.

I couldn't see and breathing was now hard but not impossible. Short shallow breathes escaped my lungs. I didn't know where I was as my eyes met nothing but the cold darkness. I still couldn't feel anything my body was still numb. All of this contributed to ringing anxiety in my chest.

The numb darkness gets broken as a vase glowing roses appears at the end of the room. On shaky and unstable legs I stand and start to my way towards them. I get closer and closer like a moth I'm drawn to the only light source. Only the closer I get the farther away the roses seem.

So I run. I run until my legs give out just inches away from the roses. My gives up just before I could reach my goal. Just like I do I do myself anytime things get to emotional I give up. I recoil back I to myself and don't try to go further. No I won't do that I won't give up this time.

With my last bit of strength I reach out and grab the roses. I let light fill the room, I let the light refill my body. With a new kind of strength I stand and let the roses lead me to the door. I use the roses as a life line and when I get to the door I'm greeted by my other life line.

The boy with the brightest blue eyes and the long brown hair. The boy that was with me thick and thin. The boy that disappeared without a trace. He was now standing I front of me smiling his perfect smile. Jeff offers his hand without a word and I take it.

He leads me to a beautiful mirror. It was gold framed with little hearts engraved in it. Everything about was elegant and gorgeous. Then my refection it half me and half the other me. The opposite me the that scares me.

"Which are you" Jeff asks but now he's covered in blood.

"I don't know" I say but now I hold a knife.

"But you do" but I don't want to admit it.

"Your wrong" but he's not.

I want to fight it, I want to be the the good me but I can't win. I look back at him but now my eyes are greeted with a to bright light. Now my eyes don't stare into the blue  eyes of my sweet innocent Jeffrey but the black eyes of the new Jeff. The black eyes and pale skin with a bloody cut smile.

"Are you ok" he asks worry in voice.

I just nod unsure if I am and not willing to share the fact that I don't know.

"You're not but I understand" he sounds as defeated as I feel and for some reason I feel bad.

"I'm sorry" I mutter in a broken voice.

He looks at me probably take aback by my voice and if Im being even I'm surprised by the emotions behind it. In the blink of eye his arms are wrapped around me. He rubs his hands up and down my back while reassuring me it'll be ok.

"You are still you no matter what they say, don't believe them when they say you're bad. When they say to kill remember you are strong" he says and I  hold back my gasp. He really has gone through this before.

"But what if they're right, I dont  want to hurt anyone but I can't help it"

"You haven't hurt anyone yet you're still good" he tries.

"I have don't you remember Heather and Chad and his friends at the mall, I wanted to kill them".

"It won't happen again the voice took you by surprise next time you'll be able to fight it"

"How can fight myself I'm strong enough"

"Your are strong enough you just believe it" he says hold me tighter.

I don't want to hurt anyone nobody deserves to die before their time. Even as I think this images of of Heather bleeding body on the sidewalk fill my head. The image of me killing her flash before my eyes. I can hear her screams for me stop as I Jab a knife though her. I can her apologizing for all she's done in hopes of me stoping.

You know at least some part of you is me. You're both me and you.

I don't want hurt anyone.

But you do.

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