The Merge ( EXO's Miracles In December)

4- Second Chances

I'm leaving mom!" He yelled from the front door assuming his mother on the other side is not hearing him.

"Hey! That's not leaving for good, is it?" She took giant steps and within seconds was facing him.

"I can take no more of this nonsense. And no, mom it won't work this time. I am leaving!" He lowered his tone hoping his mother would understand she has nothing to do with it.

"People get drunk, you know!" She said desperately at her son, not wanting him to leave. He put his backpack on the floor and hugged her, "Mom, you do know this has nothing to do with you, but the fact that he's my hyung, doesn't give him the space to take it all on me when he has nowhere else to put his anger!" He let go and pressed both his hands on her shoulders, looking in her sad eyes, "Truthfully, the fact that he's my elder brother makes him more responsible of how he acts in front of me. Leave alone how he treats me."

She couldn't hold her tears anymore and let it all out as his heart ached at the sight of his crying mother, but he was just full of his brother coming late every night, picking up fights with him and even hit him sometimes.

"Mother, if you were me, like really me, you're Baekhyun and you get to deal with this every day. And now, that you've took the decision for what seems like the hundredth time, you're beautiful, flawless, perfect mother is crying her heart out for you. What would you do?" He said, every word came right from deep inside him and she knew it.

She stopped crying and gave him her best smile and said, "Go!"

"What?" He asked not following up.

"It's okay, go." She smiled again at him.

He held her again before he turned his back at her and stood to face the world outside.

Clearing throat, then a straight but yet sleepy voice came out after, "Where do you think you're going?" His brother said from inside the house.

Baekhyun and his mother exchanged looks, then he bent down, picked his bag, "Mom, I'm leaving." He said with a tone only she would hear.

"I said, Where- do- you- think- you're going?" His brother repeated as he approached both of them.

Baekhyun didn't even look at his brother, instead he kissed his mother's cheek, turned his back and before he made it out, his brother grabbed his wrist stopping him. "Hyung, Let go." Baekhyun said with a calm-managed tone, still his back facing the older one.

"Where are you going?" His brother asked again but softened his tone.

"I'm leaving, hyung."

"Because of me?"

"Hyung, please just let me go." Baekhyun asked his brother who lowered his hand and gently held his younger brother's palm in his, "Baekhyun, would you just listen to me this time?"

Baekhyun finally looked at him, his brother looked at him sincerely, he meant it, and Baekhyun somehow felt that his brother is feeling sorry for the first time in ages.

He got inside and as they sat on the couch their mother ran inside, "I'll make you fresh juice." She said excitedly and Baekhyun smiled at his runaway mother.

He sat awkwardly, his hyung is no calmer. The elder cleared his throat about three times, Baekhyun felt the other feeling so nervous, and to be honest he was curious about what he would say.

"Hyung, you said you wanted to say some-thing?" Baekhyun asked.

"Ah, yeah" He changed his pose and faced his younger brother, he sighed deeply, "Baekhyun, I know we don't get along together.. Maybe lately.. And I'm aware I've been pouring the load on you." He sighed again as deep as could be, "And I know we haven't talked for awhile.. Baekhyun, I do really love you.. I know my latest actions proves otherwise but the truth is.. Well, the truth is.."

Baekhyun never took his eyes off him, trying to get along but his hyung seems taking it too hard on himself, so he wanted him to slow down, "Hyung, I'm not mad because you pick up fights or yell and so on. I'm angry that you've never been that rude and harsh person you turned into all of a sudden.. It hurts so much we were so close before and now, you come home so late at night, sleep as many hours as it takes but every morning I wake up I just won't find you here.. Sometimes, when it takes you weeks running around not letting anyone get a hold on you, I sit for hours and wait for you to run in or out of the door to catch a glimpse of your face.. I don't understand, we weren't that far before.. Why did you change?.. Could it be.. that there's something going on with you? Something I did? Something that happened?" Baekhyun started asking his elder while the latter looked at the floor showing all his feelings of being ashamed of himself.

"Baekhyun," his voice cracked as he rested both his elbow on his knees, "I turned into a really bad person.. And bad people.." A tear escaped his eyes and didn't cross his cheeks, it just went right between his legs "Bad people should be punished. You don't deserve a hyung like me. I couldn't protect you." At this point he broke down in tears making his younger brother panick at the sight, "I've ruined everything, I've betrayed the trust that was put in me, and most importantly, I lost your respect to me.." He sobbed so loudly and cried his heart out that he could no longer breathe, "I.. I.. I've- lo-st yo-u Baek-hyun- a.. and .. and now you- ha- hate- me-" Baekhyun cried helplessly and held his brother, "Hyung, stop it.. Hyung Please don't cry.." The other cried even harder and harder, he wanted to push Baekhyun away, he felt like he really doesn't deserve to be held by him, he doesn't deserve his younger brother tears for him, but he just couldn't, he missed him so much that he thought to himself 'It's okay to be selfish, I really do need you now, Baekhyun.. I miss you like crazy..'

The boys stayed at that position for a while. Their mother watched them and her tears ran down her face, she never interrupted them, she just walked upstairs when she saw the boys cuddling.

Night arrived, it's supposed to be calm at night but not inside this house.. Not tonight.

Baekhyun jumped off the couch, "What the hell? How dare-?!" He stopped talking and grinded his teeth when his hyung pointed his own finger to his mouth not wanting their mother to hear.

"Hyung, why on earth haven't you told me? You really thought what you've been doing is for the best?! I almost hated you for that! I was already leaving and you decided to tell me on the very last minute all of that!.. Hyung, you're really unbelievable!" Baekhyun lowered his voice a little but yet, anger fogged with every word he said and every vein in his neck proved it. His brother didn't say another word after he explained the whole thing and just watched his little brother jump here and there expressing his anger.

"Hyung.. Hyung, we need to do something." Baekhyun said, finally calming down and sat next to his brother.

"I don't know.. I wasn't going to tell you any of this, but you were leaving Baekhyun, and that's something that would literally break me.. I couldn't take it.. I didn't think and just dragged you here and spilled it all on you just like that.. Further than this, trust me I wouldn't know.."

"Hyung, you were wrong not telling me earlier.. But now that I know.." He stood up again but this time taking his backpack in his hands which freaked out his the other and made him stand in panic as well, "Now that I know, I'm moving in with you in your room, no more drinking and no more sitting alone, we're finding a way out of this.. Even if I have to lose everything for it. Cause hyung, I still care.. I've never hated you.. I love you too hyung.. Always and forever.." Baekhyun expressed his sincerity. His brother gave him his back and cried, Baekhyun held him from behind, "Aww hyung, you're becoming so sensitive it makes me suspect you.. Why so emotional? ha? having some love troubles? You can tell me, you know? I can help you.. You never seemed interested in girls, so are you now, being so emotional and so.. You can tell me." His hyung laughed and so did Baekhyun.

And for the sake of that hour, they stayed longer than ever in elder's room, planning and thinking and staying all night. Their mother couldn't help but pray for them and make them food like every 3 to 5 hours.. God bless her..