207 Days.

seven.

Do you remember that meteor shower we watched together last summer? We stood out on the balcony wrapped in each other, and we talked about the sky and how big of an impact something like a meteor could have.

You had that kind of impact on my life. You left me dependent and also greedy.

I needed you to get through my day and I wanted nothing more. Only you; and I didn't want anyone else to have you.

I guess I don't need to worry about that anymore though, huh?

I almost feel paralyzed laying here. I've done nothing for the last two weeks. I wonder if the owner of this place will come to collect his money any time soon...

When, and if, he does come he will probably find me in this same spot watching this meaningless stupid movie with notebook paper all over the room.

All of the papers filled with words to you.

The words I wish I could have told you; because maybe, just maybe, I would be wrapped in you again tonight.

Just like the night of the meteor shower. Just like the night I truly fell for you.

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I fell for you. Like really fell for you. Like I saw your smile and I swear to god I crashed down to earth and broke all my bones. How come when astroids fall to earth they leave craters in the ground and kill out the dinosaurs but when I do it I just end up in bed for days watching The Notebook and crying till I'm numb.