Oakdale// Ziall+Narry

Chapter 30

Hai :)

brace yourself, loser we're going downhill.

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How could you do this knowing who he is?

Think about Harry!

You're a two-timing tramp, you cant keep this from him.

After all he's done, this is how you repay him?

You're in for it, now.

After i pull away, Zayn's lips chase mine for a split second before he opens his eyes.

"Have i frightened you?" He asks, his voice laced with concern. The leg i had propped up was gently released and placed on the floor.

"No." I shake my head, retrieving my hands back to my body that felt heavy with guilt.

"Are you feeling well?" He continues his line of questions, guiding me to sit back down on the chair.

No, my shame was eating me from the inside out.

"Indeed," I sighed, trying my best to stay in good spirits, "Just a little euphoric, that's all."

Zayn smirked, "I find myself to be in the same state as you."

After i didn't respond, he hesitantly, as not to disturb me, placed a small kiss on my forehead. It was quick and light, but a kiss nonetheless.

He sat back down in the chair behind his desk, keeping his eyes on me as i tried to evaluate what just happened.

You cheated, thats what happened.

Harry will hate you for that.

You will be fired, placed on the streets; no one can save you now.

"Just for reassurance," Zayn began, starting out slow and looking at me, "You did not read the first journal i had placed in front of you, did you?"

Why must he ask me a question like that?

I mustn't lie any longer, this guilt is killing me.

"I had read the title," I confess, keeping my eyes on the ground below me, "Julia M. Smith."

He takes a sharp intake of breath when i mention her name, as if she were a sensitive topic.

"I see," He mumbles, the concern he once had for me fleeting and turning into caution, "You must wonder who she is?"

"Indeed, I had spoke with Louis about her." I reply, not even catching my slip up of a name.

"You spoke with Louis?" He frowns, "When?"

Shit.

"After lunch, i was headed upstairs and he called out to me. Then we spoke." I lie, only adding guilt to my chock-full supply.

"And you did not think to return upstairs and ignore the imbecile?" He grilled, raising an eyebrow at me.

"I did not, I did not know who he was until he introduced himself," I lie once again, the guilt inside me bubbling and gnawing at me.

I look up to him, my regret plastered on my face, "I apologize, Mr. Malik."

He stares at me for a couple seconds, before finally letting out a deep sigh. "You are forgiven, Niall."

"May i ask, what did Louis have to say about Julia?" He pondered, a perplexed look on his face.

He said you raped her.