Negan's Seamstress.

Hate

My head is hurting as I slowly raise my body from the bed. I look around the room to see I am back at the hilltop. I recognize this room because it's my old trailer.

The soft purple sheets and dark wood walls remind me of the day I met Negan. I hated him so much. He was arrogant, and selfish to take me from my home. I am glad now he did, if he hadn't, I would not have my child.

I would also not know what its like to truly love someone. I miss him so much. I hope that I can find a way to escape here and find my way back to him. My thoughts are interrupted by my door swinging open, revealing Rick. He places a tray on the nightstand with some pancakes on it.

" I hope you're hungry after you eat do you think we could talk ?"

I looked at his eyes full of sorrow and pain. I knew he must be desperate to kidnap me. I was still angry with him but I desperately wanted to know why. Rick looped his hands through his belt loop as he sat down on my bed. I jerked my gaze away from him as my lips part to speak.

" Why did you do it ?"  Rick didn't say anything for a moment as he ran his fingers through his wet curls.

" I  never planned on it, but when I found out Carl was going to die that changed things. I can't let him get away with all he has done just because you love him.

I know that it will take time, but maybe you can find someone else. You could .."

I rose up abruptly putting distance between us ." I have already lost someone I cared about! Negan had me kill him! I can't lose another person I love!

If you ever cared about me, you would let me go! Negan is in danger, and I need to be with him. Somebody is trying to take him our within his own ranks, and I need to stop it. "

I spat as I crumbled to the floor in defeat. I brought my knees up to my chin as my tears flowed down my cheeks. Rick shot up from his spot sitting right by me.

He placed his hands on his knees crossing them over each other.

" He is an evil man, that has to be stopped. He doesn't care who he kills or who he hurts ."

I wiped my eyes with my hand glaring at him ." Your wrong! When I told him Carl was dying he was upset! He felt bad for you! He told me he didn't want to fight with you anymore! Do you realize that now he will do anything he has to do to get me back!

You ruined any chance of this ending peacefully! "

Rick stayed silent as he processed my words ." I am killing him. He will come for you and if he surrenders we will kill him. If he doesn't surrender, then I will have no choice but to make him think we killed you ."

"Are you crazy! He will go insane! I won't help you hurt him!" Rick sighed as he rubbed his chin with his hand."You don't have to help me, we already took a photo of you knocked out. He will believe it ."

I pushed myself up using my hands against the wall for support. " Go To Hell!" I yelled as I slammed the door to the bathroom then locked it so he couldn't come in. "

" I know right now you hate me. That's fine, I can live with that. I know one day you will thank me for this. I will kill him, it's just the way it has to be.

My hate for him is stronger than my love for you. I am sorry ." I heard his steps fade as he left my room, leaving me full of hate.