Love and Games

For B

Author's note: Hey guuuuys! Sorry that there's suddenly a B here. Hahahaha. I know my introductions were only until I. Well I didn't think that I'd add another character. Anyways here's For B ;)
Enjoy.

P.S. I still add poems to all chapters.
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Hey B. Guess what?
I think I'm falling for you
But you wouldn't know
You don't even have a clue, do you?

Sometimes you speak out such sugary words
Such a tease but I think it wasn't purposely done
But I just can't conclude on why do you keep taking them back
Saying such sweet things
Later on saying friend zone is where we're at

B, I really don't know whats your game
Now that I think of it, it kinda feels like hide-and-seek play
Come on can you just tell me where you are?
Cause I wouldn't tell you where I am
I've been in that road before

Anyways maybe I'll focus on us being friends
Maybe that way I can forget you're someone I'm falling in love with

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B, sometimes you remind me of an ex
You remind me of good boys and chivalry
You remind of something my first love had

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I think I'm scared of relationships
Of trust, time gone to waste
Sometimes I think I'm so scared that I even self-sabotage it.
To not make it to that point
To not even have an "us"
To be content with no labels and no commitment
To think that it's better to leave things not knowing than risking a disastrous future

I'm laying out my point-of-view. I'm tired of the wrong love. I'm tired of relationshits. I'm tired cause I tried.

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Tired = tried
Funny how tired and tried are jumbled letters and so much alike.

Tried as the cause and tired as an effect. Two words intertwined.

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••• those three dots showing up in our chat convo.

It makes me lose my mind

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The start is always sweet
Like candy and chocolates
Here comes the first dates
And maybe some serenades

I'm not a morning person
But now I wake up early
I think you're the reason
I guess you're changing me

I really hope you're the one
Yeah I know it's too soon
I just feel like you're not like everyone
And I hope that's what you feel for me too

Would you bear the distance?
And wait for my return?
I'm sorry if I have to leave
In the near future

I hope we'll be okay
I hope we'll find a way
I hope we'll be strong
And lead no one astray

(Dedicated to Jiana Gimeno for pushing me to continue! Thank you for everything! 😘😘)

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I'm sorry I'm scared
To give it my all
To climb the highest building
And have the greatest fall

Please bear with me
And give me more time
Sorry for the wait
Even though you hold no crimes

I'm scared of love
I'm scared of what it could do
I'm scared of what it did to me
What it put me through

I'm also sorry if I,
Don't show my feelings well
I'm not good with speaking
But my songs and poems will tell

Read and you'll know
And also understand I hope
Read these texts
You'll read my soul

- a writer, naked

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I'd love to be your girl

The girl who is strong
The girl with no flaws
The girl who is beautiful
Whom everyone will look upon

I'd love to be your girl
Oh I'm willing to try
Piece by piece let's rebuild
This broken heart of mine

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That Kind of Love

A friend adviced me. Why don't you chill?

No. I can't. Love isn't chill or a go with the flow kind of thing. I think of love intensely where you put your heart and soul. The kind of love that will hurt so fucking much if it ends. So much that it will break me. That's the way love is for me. It's all or nothing.

If your kind of love isn't the same, maybe it isn't love at all

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11:11 make a wish

I wish I won't regret you. I wish I won't regret this.

-chance

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I can see it already
I can't wait to have the future with you

Yes. You read it write. It's not a future with you cause it's the future with you. I can have the future without you...but I'd rather have you in it.

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You got me slow dancing in rave parties
You take me on a spontaneous journeys
Love, I can't think of anyone else who'd be the same

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Is it wrong to love hard?
Baby tell me
Cause if you wanna play that game
I'll stop feeling everything

If you're not serious
Then baby tell me
So I won't go down the same road
Where everything goes down in flames

Baby tell me now
Before it's too late

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Baby I've already done all the wrong
So I promise to do you right

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My Limits of Truth

Of all the things I wish I could
Love, I just couldn't lie about the truth to you

I can't lie to your face about the things I wish I haven't done
I'd keep quiet and better not tell
Hoping you'd understand and not ask again

If you push me to the point that I do say,
Please don't make me regret even more
If you push me to the point that I get mad
Please just understand that its so bad

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