Just Catch Me. {Demi Lovato Fanfiction}

Chapter Thirteen

 

 

Chapter Thirteen

 

 

*POV Demi*

 

 

I huff out a swift breath, mumbling "shit" under my breath over and over again, because that's just how I feel. I glare at the reflection staring back at me in the mirror. Why did I let myself break down in front of Simon and Kelly and everyone who was out there? And now I look awful. My eyeshadow has long been rubbed away, and watery mascara drips down my cheeks, staining them black. My lipstick is smudged, probably from kissing Kelsey. My hair is in tangles, the blue color looking less elegant and more trashy. I shake my head at myself, making a mental note to change my hair soon.

I smudge the makeup with my thumb, hoping to get it off. I try desperately to make the skin under my eyes less red and puffy, splashing cold water on my face. God I hate crying, especially in front of the people I care about. I can't believe how easily I just broke down. I can't believe I yelled at Simon. I can't believe I swore on TV. I can't believe I kissed Kelsey in public.

I can't believe the producers would do that to me.

Immediately my fist clenches at the thought of the bitter betrayal. My addictions are news to everyone, and I'm still trying to figure out how to handle the newly added pressure.

"AHH!" I slam my hands on the table in front of me, closing my eyes and trying to block out the noises of people shuffling around outside the door.

"Breathe, Demi," I whisper to myself. "Everything's okay. Everything's fine." I rest my elbows on the counter with my head in my hands.

"God, what am I going to do?" I whisper, feeling more tears burn behind my eyes. I don't try to hold them back and they fall silently, dripping onto the countertop.

"Hey," a voice from behind me says softly. "You really look like you could use someone right now." I turn around to see Kelly standing in the door with a makeup bag in her hand. I smile gratefully at her and nod.

I let out a breath. "Yeah, I guess you could say that," I whisper. She sits in the chair beside me and I turn towards her, flicking the hair out of my eyes.

"That girl you got there is pretty special," Kelly adds as she begins cleaning me up.

I exhale slowly, my lips turning up into a smile at the thought of Kelsey. "Definitely," I tell her.

I close my eyes and let her gently wipe the tears and makeup stains from under my eyes. We're both silent for a few moments as Kelly applies new makeup to my skin.

"Are they continuing the show without us there?" I ask, and she nods.

"Simon knew you needed some time alone and I knew you needed somebody here with you. Luckily right now they're just showing some videos from the season so they don't need us in our seats. We should probably go out in the next ten minutes."

I don't speak, I just nod, wondering if I'll even be able to go out there, to look at Mario and not just see him laughing at the clips of me, to see the Top Three and not just see what could've happened if I were a better mentor, to be next to Kelly and Simon and not just remember that they've seen me at my most vulnerable point.

"Oh, my god," I whisper as Kelly finishes, holding my head in my hands. "I'm such an idiot..."

"No you're not, honey," Kelly coos. "None of this is your fault." She rubs my back gently. I try to give her a small smile, but fail miserably.