Danger Days!Gee
Tbp!Frank
Huge trigger warning
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He loved him with all his heart; the way his red hair blew in the wind and the way his hazel eyes shone in the sunlight, or the way the redhead said the other's boy's name made him want to believe like he was one lucky boy.
Frank loved Gerard.
Unfortunately though, the feelings were not mutual.
Frank couldn't even tell if Gerard liked him as a person or not. The younger boy always felt as though he annoyed the one person he truly loved. When Frank was still around, he tried his best to keep his cool whenever he got the chance to talk to Gerard, he really did.
But maybe Gerard just wasn't interested in Frank, or just maybe he wasn't into boys in general. He didn't know, and he never would.
There was one time when it slipped...
Frank told Gerard he was falling for him.
The older boy didn't act disgusted or anything, he didn't even act differently towards him after that. He only acted as if nothing happened- but that probably was just because Frank asked him to pretend as though he never said anything.
After that, Frank hardly talked to Gerard. He didn't want to make a fool of himself. He already felt like one as it was.
Of course Gerard didn't like Frank back. Of course Gerard thought Frank was a loser. Everyone thought Frank was a loser. Though, that didn't cease Frank's feelings for the red haired boy.
After a while, however, his feelings did take a drastic turn...
In a negative way, as well.
Frank knew he wasn't wanted by Gerard; the redhead acted as if he really could care less about what happened to the younger boy. Frank knew he wasn't wanted by anyone, for that matter.
He was living for Gerard, so if Gerard didn't care, why should Frank still be living?
"I could never love you, Frank..."
It broke him knowing that he couldn't get what he wanted.
It broke him even more when he saw Gerard with another person. A girl.
He looked so happy; holding hands with her as they walked together into school.
A single tear rolled down Frank's face when he saw Gerard. He wanted to be happy for him, but he couldn't. Everything just seemed to be crashing down onto Frank that day. And it was that same day the two boys' lips connected in a sad, dead kiss.
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Frank walked to the bathroom with his head down, avoiding all eye contact with everyone walking beside him and toward him. His hood was up and his hands were in his pockets, clenched in a tight fist.
He just saw Gerard kiss the girl.
He couldn't take it anymore.
Finally though, he made it to the bathroom. Frank slammed the stall door shut and collapsed down onto the floor, sobbing quietly into his arms. Heartbreaking sobs escaped his lips- someone was bound to hear them anytime soon.
He let out an angry noise as he rummaged through his backpack, pulling out a couple things. Frank pulled out a full bottle of antidepressants and a bottle of some off-brand alcohol. He continued crying as he popped open the cap to the pills and looked down at them.
He was really going to do it.
Frank quickly downed most of the pills, washing them down with the shitty alcohol he stole from his mom's stash.
The taste and burn of the alcohol only made him cry more, but a few minutes later, everything seemed to become blurry.
He laid down on the dirty floor of the school's bathroom, his eyes half lidded with his fingers loosley gripped onto the bottle of liquor.
Frank was nearly passed out when he heard a faint, but familiar voice call his name. He could see their legs from under the stall door and eventually, it was kicked open, revealing a scared-shitless looking Gerard Way.
To be continued...
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Yooooo I wrote this like 2 days ago when I was super duper fuuuuker sad
I'm still sad but not as muchhhh
Hope all is well ❤️
Codyxø
