Elijah
I haven't heard from Erika in two days and it was starting to irritate me. I did what Rayvn told me to do and now I'm getting tired of giving her time.
If we get marry imagine how things going to turn out. I'm starting to feel like I don't love Erika like I use to since she be so distant lately and on top of that I been kicking it with Rayvn.
It's no secret that we both feeling each other. I invited her to church this morning so hopefully she'll show up like she said she would.
Far as Erika I'll find out what she's keeping from me.
Rayvn
I told Elijah that I was gonna come to church since he invited me. The way I've been feeling the past week, I need some prayer in my life.
I got dress getting ready to head out the door so I could be half way on time. Don't really care for Sunday school, that be too early in the morning getting up.
Once I made sure everything was off I left out my apartment locking it up behind me.
I finally made it at a good time, by the time I walk in the pastor should be just now getting into the sermon. I look in the mirror making sure I was decent before walking in.
Stepping out my car I ran into Cornell and some girl he had with him. "Good morning Rayvn glad to see you here".
"Moring Cornell surprised you running late".
"You already know, I don't come when they do all that singing".
"Typical" he went on in the building as I was right behind him. I start looking for a seat that was in the back, that's where the sinners sit at.
I got me a seat and start paying attention towards the front. I spotted Elijah up in the stand, from the looks of it I'm assuming he was about to sing.
The piano player began to hit the keys as Elijah began to sing;Soul Will Sing. I was blown away once I heard his voice, it was so soft and smoothing.
Before I knew it tears start rolling down my face. The song was very anointed the words to the song had touch my soul.
I sat there with my eyes closed just thinking about how God been good to me even when I didn't deserve it.
The song was slowly ending and people start clapping and giving God praise. I open my eyes to see Elijah putting the mic back on the stand and taking his seat.
The preacher got up from his seat coming up to the podium setting his bible down. I really couldn't get a good look at the man but that voice sound very familiar once he start talking.
"Everyone stand to their feet and start giving God his praise. He woke you up this morning when he didn't even have to".
As I stood to my feet I got a good look at him and my whole mood had change from happy back to that old me.
It was him, the man that made my life a living hell. I look over at Elijah who gave me a warm smile which I didn't return one back.
I storm out the church going to my car. As soon I was in the car, Elijah come running out the church coming towards my car but it was to late I sped out the parking lot down the street.
My blood was boiling as memories start to come back in my head. Tears was just rolling as I drove fast down the freeway, I didn't care at this point if I got pull over by the police or even get into an accident.
Flashback....
There's no way I was about to get rid of my baby. When he gave me the money I went straight home and cried all night.
If only I should've told someone about him messing with me I wouldn't be carrying his baby.
"Ray I brought home some pizza instead going out to eat" I heard my mom voice in the hallway.
She walk in my room sitting on my bed touching my back which only made me cry even harder. I couldn't stand keeping this from her but I had to.
"Rayvn what's wrong, why are you crying"? She made me look at her.
Even if I wanted to say something I couldn't because I kept crying hysterically.
"Ray I can't help you if you don't tell me what's going on".
I only shook my head while pulling away from her running into the bathroom locking the door. I start knocking things down that was insight.
My mom start banging on the door to let her end. "Open the door Rayvn now".
"No, leave me alone"!!! I start hitting the mirror not caring about the cuts that was forming in my fist.
I wanted to end my life right here and now.
"FUCK MY LIFE"!!! I scream out.
I pick up a piece of shatter glass that was on the floor bringing up to my wrist getting ready to end it all when the bathroom door bust open to see my mom coming towards me taking the glass out my hand pulling me in a hug while telling me everything was going to be okay.
Little does she knows it wasn't, especially when I was carrying Pastor Daniel Jackson seed inside of me.
Hopefully the video will play
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