I feel like I have to vomit.
Why didn't I told him at first?
Why was I that stupid?
It was like a part if me us dying.
all of me died.
I'm shaking and it's not even cold.
I thought that it hurt when other people left but.. this killed me.
The last speck if hope..is gone.
I'm lost in that darkness.
Lost in this miserable body with a dumb mind. Who thought that everything will work out.. that everything will be okay.
I feel like that life's just going to kick me in the ass.. Every time a little harder so I really swallow the dirt. So it really gets down my throat. Until all the shit is in my lungs.
If this is how my life will always be then.. oh god please, you can have it back.
You know in all the movies where kids are disappointed when they get socks for Christmas?
Yeah. My life is like that present.
Dear Lord.. why did I do this? WHY AM I LIKE THIS?! WHY CAN'T EVERY THING JUST TURN OUT GOOD?!
Oh baby.. Why.. I didn't plan to hurt anyone but I do? with everything I do.. This gets just worse.
should I shut up?
- propably.
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shait
PoetryHellow People.. here we are again. I wanted to start a new book for 2018 and yeah.. here it is. I hope you enjoy my thoughts, written down when I was bored, frustrated or went through a mental breakdown. Or when I was extremely Happy! I'll try t...
