shait

22.01

  I think some movies are discribing the process of getting over someone really good. But only all of what others can see.. For girls it's always eating ice cream, crying to sleep or getting a makeover..
Much girls do things like that. In movies they accept it really fast that they won't get their ex back.
I'm different.
I won't accept that this love story is over.. I just can't. 
When he said that he don't want that 'us' anymore I think a huge part of me died. temporary.
My Love owns so much of me.. not only my body but also my mind.
And now that it's over he took it with him.
But.. I can't lose hope. I still wear your sweater.. I just have to wear the underwear we bought together.
Of course I wash it. but when it's dry it will definetly go on my body right away.
I can't out that ring down.. whenever I have to take it off for sports I feel so lonely. There's something missing.
I can't sleep without that "goodnight and I love you" I won't have a good day without a "Good morning"
You made your way in my agenda and I want you to be a part of it..
It's only been like 2 days and I don't want to keep going.
You said that you need a few days.. I will give you as much time as you need.
But please..  when you want to talk then call me.. don't text.
I want to hear your voice again.
That doesn't mean that I've forgot how your voice calmed me down.. I just want to hear it. I want to hear the tone if it when we talk. Would it sound sad? Exiting? How would a last "I love you" would sound?
I hope that we end up together. I want you back.. If I have you by my side.. I got everything I want.
  We both said "forever and longer" where did that go?..
Please.. come back.. let's talk.. let's be what we were.. no.. let's make it perfect.. Please.. Let's have a happy end. Like in Disney movies..
I'm the princess and you are my prince.
And so that you know.. I'll always be yours. And no one will change that.