melodrama||phan[book 2]

chapter 3*

The * means that this chapter will be triggering, with the mention of abuse and other very triggering things so skip this, but then again this whole story is triggering so idk

dan had once told me, that during our four months apart his life wasn't the best. he had thought that his life had no worth at all. he was high all the time, and didn't care about sobriety. you may all wonder, what dan and i did during those four months.  that's just what i'm going to tell you.

dan's life began to get out of control. he was sleeping with more people, of course high as fuck. one night he had told me about always stuck in the back of my mind. he had a long hard day at the club, but he didn't mind since he was about to get high. he spotted the black sports car that he knew so well, and went towards it. once he had opened the door, he was greeted by alex. he got in and took out his pack of cigarettes. just before he could light it, alex grabbed it from his mouth and threw it out the window.

"what the fuck was that for?" dan asked, rolling his eyes.

"how many times have i told you not to smoke in the car? god you never listen dan."

dan rolled his eyes once more, then turned on the radio. alex sighed, as he shifted the car into drive. Alex got on to the main road and drove off deeper into the city. They were going to a party that was quite far away but it was for Alex's job so dan couldn't stop him. Soon alex had slid his hand onto Dan's thigh. Dan began to feel uncomfortable, but didn't say anything. He stayed quiet because he knew what would happen if he called Alex out. Dan was using drugs every night, he was always with Alex. Of course, alex just wasn't going to let dan do this for free, so when ever alex wanted to be payed in their special way, dan had too. Dan was using so much drugs that even if he wasn't in the mood for sex, he'd be forced into it. Dan knew that if he was silent and didn't bring it up that Alex would just remove his hand and let him get off free for the night. That sadly didn't happen though because the next thing dan knew Alex's hand was gripping his dick.

"Alex, w-what are you doing?" Dan stuttered out.

"You have used a lot of supply this week, and honestly I'm horny as fuck right now. So I think you should pay me tonight."

"Listen, I'm really not in the mood tonight so can we just-"

"Can we just what dan? Because last time I checked you're the one that gets away with getting drugs for basically free. unless you want to pay the money you owe me, but you and I both know you don't have enough money to pay me back."

"Alex can't we just do this tomorrow, I had a hard day and I just want to-"

Alex didn't listen though, because at that moment he had hit dan. this wasn't something new. whenever dan had pissed alex off , he would turn to physical contact. he really didn't care if he had hurt dan, because all though they were friends the business was what alex cared the most about. dan knew it was wrong what alex had did, but he had stayed with him because he stood with him back when he had no one, but like most things in this story thats for another time.

"dan you better be careful, or you just might have to pay like all my other costumers. you and i know that you're the only one who has an arrangement like this because of our past." alex spoke, keeping his eyes on the road.

"do you really have to go to this party?"

"it's my job dan." alex sighed, as he pulled into a parking spot.

dan got out of the car, and followed alex into house. they went straight to the basement because that was were all of alex's clients were. it didn't take long for alex to finish his business, so he decided to get high and drunk as hell. surprisingly, dan stayed away from the drugs, because he just wanted to get high in the comfort of his own home. dan just wanted to leave, but he couldn't just leave alex there since after all it was his car. dan ventured out, set on finding his friend. he was no where to be found, so dan walked up the stairs to check the bedrooms. there he sat, looking out an open window, with a joint in his hand.

"alex, can we leave already?" dan asked.

"we can leave after you pay me." alex stated.

"how many times do i have to say i don't want to have sex tonight."

it was a known fact that alex was worse when he was high then in his sober state. he was a different person. sober alex would eventually give up, but when high or drunk he would take what he though he deserved.

"come on dan, you know it's going to happen. it's not like this hasn't happened before."

alex grabbed dan's wrists, and pushed him on to the bed. he kissed dan, though dan struggled to pull away. alex then removed his own clothes, and began to undo dan's pants.

"alex, p-please don't do this, i'll do anything but this." dan cried out, with tears streaming down his face. but alex didn't listen.

while dan was being assaulted, i was having condoned sex. i had invited jensen over, being that we were having an affair. jensen had just gotten into a relationship but we enjoyed each others company a little too much. all i remember from that night was the sound of dan's apartment door being slammed shut, and what sounded like the sound of muffled cries. if dan hadn't told me to stay away, i would've gone over and checked on him that night, but instead i continued to do a sinful act with jensen. maybe if i had gone over to his apartment that night certain events wouldn't have happen, but like i've said a million times before, that story is for a different time.

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So this is unedited, and I'm very sorry for the triggering story line of this chapter, but it plays apart in the story. It's a terrible thing and hopefully it hasn't happened to you, but if it has and you need someone to talk to, you can always talk to me.