melodrama||phan[book 2]

chapter 2

dan had once talked about his drug use before, but that wasn't until about a year and a half into our relationship. we were laying together, while he was playing with my hair when i asked the question. but you'll hear about that later, since there's always a story to go along with something, and that story is not ready to be told yet. i had first found out about dan's drug issue through jensen, since he had told me that dan was hanging around with a popular dealer in the club. i didn't believe it until jensen and i had run into dan and the man in the hallway one day. once i entered my own apartment, jensen decided to speak up.

"remember that drug dealer i told you about?"

"yeah, what about him?"

"that was him with dan. alex isn't his friend, he's his drug dealer."

i didn't want to believe that dan was on drugs, but all i knew was that i hated alex. what i hated more was the thin walls of the apartment. you could hear dan and alex loud and clear, but oh how i wished that i was alex just to be with dan one more time. jensen soon snapped me out of my thoughts.

"you know the only reason they fuck, is so that dan can pay him back for all the drugs he buys." jensen said causally. "so i think you may be able to win him back."

"what? i thought you hated dan?"

"i only hate him at work, and i know this benefits thing between us going to end soon. i'm actually routing for you two."

"wait, are you serious?"

"no, i'm lying so dan will reject you and i can have you to myself." jensen replied sarcastically, rolling his eyes.

"you really think so?"

"phil you are asking to many questions, let's just fuck already." he said, getting on to my lap and began to kiss me.

of course you can guess what happened next between us. the next morning, i woke up in jensen's arms but i wasn't thinking about him. looking back i think he knew that. despite him being a stripper, i think he was more invested in me than i was in him. he started to talk about something that i wasn't really paying attention too. I honestly have jensen to thank for many things. In the end, he let me go and helped start my relationship with dan. without him dan wouldn't have ever talked to me that one night, but like i said before i'm getting there.

I didn't see dan again until later that day. I still didn't believe that he was on drugs. It was late, soon to turn an early hour in the morning, when I heard bear barking and whining from Dan's apartment. I could bare to listen to the sad sound, so I grabbed the spare keys dan had given me. Once I entered, I petted bear, and fed him. I stayed there until dan came home. That's when I knew everything jensen had told me was correct. He really didn't look good, you could just tell he was high about an hour or two ago. I just didn't know what drug it was.

"What the hell are you doing here?" He said,once his eyes landed on me.

"Bear was barking, so I used my spare key to-"

"Give me the key."

"Dan, you don't look to good."

"Just leave."

"Dan, I'm trying to help, what's wrong?" Little did I know the next words he'd speak would break my heart.

"Phil leave alright! I never want to see you again! Just forget about me okay! Never speak to me again!"

That's just what I did next, I left. I got up and slammed the door, and ran to my apartment crying. I didn't want to be alone, so I called the only person I knew would pick up, jensen. That was the last time I'd see dan for awhile. Little did I know that it was those events that threw him over the edge.