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2 months later

valentina's pov

it's been 2 months since i left paulo. it's been hard, extremely hard. a few times i have nearly gone back but i know i couldn't. i have to do for myself and my baby, not him.

'are you okay tina?' asks bruna.

'i'm fine.' i say my voice shaking, i'm waiting to do another scan but this time it's so the doctors know what the gender is. i've decided i want to know, not wanting to know was another one of paulo's plan.

'it'll be fine, don't worry.' she says grabbing my hand and giving it a slight squeeze.

'i just hope he or she is healthy, that's all.'

'miss franco, are you ready?' says the nurse. bruna and i look at each other before i take a deep breath.

'i'm ready.' i say walking towards her.

'your friend can come if she likes.' says the nurse with a smile.

'i'll just here.' says bruna with a smile.

'is the father coming?'

'i don't know.'

i still asked paulo to the scans and check ups, so far he's come to every single one.

'her and the father aren't currently in a relationship.' says bruna, the nurse looks at me surprised.

'really? last time i both saw you, you were both happily in love.' says the nurse.

'people change, that's all.' i say simply.

'that's a shame, i hope you can maybe get it to work in the future.' she says.

before she asks, i roll up my top, my bump has been properly starting to show these past few weeks.

'it'll be a bit cold.' she says carefully putting it on my stomach.

'sorry, i'm late!' says a voice suddenly bursting into the room, and there's paulo sweaty and out of breath, his training bag still on his shoulder.

'you haven't missed anything.' says the nurse.

'hey bruna.' says paulo with a small smile, she just looks at him.

'hi paulo.' she says with no expressing on her face.

'right, so far so good. you're baby seems to be in good health. i'll just check again to make sure.' she says looking at the monitor.

'everything is in shape. would you like to know the baby's gender?' she says. paulo and i look at each other, knowing we both don't agree.

'yes please.' says paulo, i look at paulo.

'are you sure?' i ask.

'yes, i know you wanted to know but i was being selfish and you decided to go along with me even though it's not what you wanted. i know, i'm the baby's father but still you're the mother. you're the one going through childbirth not me. you're going through all the pain, risking your life.'

'are you sure?' i ask again smiling slightly.

'positive.' he says nodding. the nurse continues looking on the scan.

'congratulations, you're having a little girl.' she says.

'a little girl.' says paulo in shock, 'i can't believe it.'

'have you got any name ideas?' asks the nurse.

i look at paulo smiling.

'alex. short for alexandra.' he says quietly.

alexandra carmen franco dybala.

paulo's eyes start tearing up, making me start crying. he said he didn't a preference but i knew how much he wanted a little girl.

'stop crying.' i say laughing slightly at paulo.

'sorry, this is just an emotional day for me.'

'he's a footballer, they are all extremely over dramatic.' i say making the nurse laugh.

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'would you like a coffee?' asks paulo.

'yes please.' i say sat down. i look around the house i once used to live in, it's the first time i've been here since i left. nothing much has changed.

'so how is everything?' asks paulo setting down the mug in front of me.

'it's been good. i've finally stopped unpacking my apartment.' i say.

both paulo and i know the environment is extremely awkward. i can tell paulo is holding in stuff he wants to say.

'tina, can i just say something? please hear me out, i'm not asking you to forgive me anything.' says paulo.

'this two months have been so fucking hard for me. i've been so lonely and missing you like crazy. i want you to be mine again, i want to see you at my games again. i want us to cuddle up on the sofa together, i want us to go our road trip adventures together.'

'i can completely understand why you don't want me back, i'm not going to give you this long speech asking you for forgiveness. i was a selfish son of a bitch, what i'm asking for, is a second chance. i know you probably won't give it to me but i'm just saying. i can change, i will, tell me what you want me to do to make myself a better person. and if i fail, i'll never bother you again.' says paulo.

'i'll think about it.'

it has been two months, i could give paulo another chance. i always believed in second chances. he always gave me another one when i fucked up, now it's my turn.

'look let- wait what?' he says confused.

'i said i'll think about it.' i say with a shrug.

'are you sure tina?'

'yes, but i'll need some time.'

'i completely understand. i'll give you as long as you need, i'll wait years if i have to, if it means you'll be mine again.'

bit of a messy part but i hope you all enjoyed it. do you think she should give paulo another chance? but answer with what you would do not just because "it's paulo."