Please don't hate me if this is bad.
Hope you enjoy!!!
Nick's Point of view
Ryan. My little fluff ball. The most adorable person ever. He's like a little puppy. I want him all to myself. Too bad he's my best friend.
It's been a few months since I realized that I was in love with him. Ever since then I want nothing else in my life but him. And food obviously because food is amazing. But other then food, he's all I want and can think about. I want to spend all day cuddling with him and drinking hot chocolate. Ugh I wish I could tell him, but I don't know what his reaction would be. He's not homophobic or anything. He's just my best friend. And I couldn't bear to lose him.
I decide to invite him over for a sleepover, I'm seriously thinking about telling him. Oh god am I crazy? Maybe. But just crazy in love.
I text him and an hour later he's walking into my house. We play basketball for a bit. Oh my god he can be covered in sweat and dirt and still be as cute as a bunny. I want to kiss him so bad. I don't know how much longer I can take it. We get hungry and head inside to make mac and cheese because that's all either of us know how to make really well and my parents decided to go out tonight.
We manage to make it without burning the house down and go into the basement. While he's eating I notice how cute he is when he eats. It's really weird I know! But I guess he just makes everything cute. He gets a smudge of cheese on his nose, and I reach over and clean it off with a napkin. As I do he blushes. He actually blushes!! Is this a sign?!? I'm getting to excited about this. It probably doesn't mean anything. I can't get my hopes up. We sit talking for a bit.
"Hey Nick? Can I ask you a question?"
Oh no. Have I been to obvious? Does he know? This could be very bad. But again, I'm probably overthinking this.
"Yeah sure, what's up?"
"So. Ha-.. have.... you ever.." he struggles to get the words out. He looks down and blushes again. (AW!! ❤️)
"Sorry" he whispers, still blushing.
"No, it's okay." I assure him "You can ask me anything, don't worry."
"Okay well. Haveyoueverhadacrushonaguy?" All the words come out at once.
"Pardon? I couldn't really understand you. Slower. It's okay, relax."
He looks worried, but speaks again.
"Have. You. Ever. Had. A. Crush. On. A. Guy?" He says very slowly.
Pause!!!!! This is the author. Just wanted to be clear: Even though they're besties and stuff, for some reason they haven't really talked about like...crushes and stuff that much. Deal with it. I know it's weird but don't judge their friendship.
Oh. Have I ever.
"Um, yes, I have. Why? Do you like a guy?"
"Yeah"
Oh. Oh!!! This is good!!! I have reason to believe that he likes me!! Yay!! But who?
"Cool. Do I know him?" Please say it's me.
He blushes even more then he already is.
"I'd say you know him pretty well, really well actually, probably better then me."
Okay as long as he doesn't like my brother or someone then it has to be me. I don't know many people.
"Oh wow, so can I get a name maybe?" I fake a laugh, hoping that it sounds real, just to lighten the mood.
"Well, it's your name. Nick. Because it's you. I have a crush on you."
........Wait is he serious?? He can't be serious. I'm not that great. But then again, he may actually like me.
It occurs to me that I've been sitting here with a surprised look on my face for like 15 seconds. He's probably really scared.
Maybe I should.... no. Should I? Kiss him as my response? I will. I'm a brave boy.
I lean forward. I brush my lips up against his. Pull away for half a second then throw my arms around him and passionately kiss him. I hear him gasp. Then he kisses me back.
This is what I've been missing. I need this. How have I lived without this in my life? I murmur into the kiss, "I love you." After a while the kiss breaks.
He giggles.
"Your hair smells really nice" he says.
I kiss him again.
"I love you." We both say. We're both blushing so much now. He's adorable. I love him so much.
I hope that was good!! Don't hate me if it's bad! Okay I'll stop talking byeeeee!!
