That one girl\\Colby Brock

Ch//13

Nikki's pov

        "I'll leave you two" kat said quietly turning and walking away. I turned to say something to her but stopped myself. I knew I needed to talk to him well I knew I should.
     "Hey" he said quietly.
"Hi" I said the same way. We sat down on a little bench outside the apartment. It was silent.
    "This is the part we both stay silent for about ten minutes huh" I said breaking the silence. He kinda laughed.
  "Yeah it is I guess" he said. We sat there in more silence.
"So uhhhh how has your day been" he said. I sighed rolling my eyes.
   "Colby please. Let's not sit here and try to act like everything is good because it's not. Let's just get straight to the point" I said looking at him.
   "Alright.......I think we need a break" he said.
"Haven't we been on a break since our fight?' I asked him.
    "Well...." he trailed off.
"We can be on a break if you want. I'm just tired of fighting. I'm tired of sitting here wondering if the feelings are there. I'm tired of sitting wondering if you love me" I said.
   "Of cOurse I love you" he said.
"I know you love me, but I don't think you are in love with me. I know I'm still in love with you but I think those feelings aren't there for you......" I said. He looked down.
    "Look, take the time of this break. Think about what you want. Figure it out. But don't take too long because when you finally figure it out, if it is me you want I may be gone" I said putting a hand on his. I kissed his cheek and stood up.
    With each step I took, I felt us drift. I felt our hearts become unattached. I went into my apartment and Colby went home.
   3 weeks later
  "How are you"
"How have you been"
   "Are you doing okay"
Were everything I heard since Colby and I broke up. It got annoying. I'm fine, but the more y'all make me think about it the more it hurts okay.
    I went to work, went with friends, did everything possible to distract myself. Katrina helped and I went to see the boys when Colby wasn't around.
     "Nikki, that table over there is done" Alex said pointing to the back. I nodded walking over and grabbing all the dishes. I cleaned off the table and looked around for more tables.
     I looked towards the door and saw Brennen walk in with a girl and behind him was Colby and another girl. They looked like they were very flirtatious. I felt my heart break and I quickly walked to the back.
  "What's up?" Tracy asked me. She was my boss. I told her a lot.
"Colby showed up here with another girl" I said she sighed. She gave me a hug and told me to do one more table then I could take the rest of the day off.
   I cleaned the table across the room from the four of them and I dont think they had noticed me. Thank god!
    "Nikki! I need some help over here!" Alex yelled to me. Thanks Alex now that whole table is looking at me and now Colby knows that I know he is with another girl. Thank you very much.
    I walked over and helped Alex then walked to the back grabbing my bag. I checked out and then walked out towards the front. I could see Colby trying to walk towards me so I went around tables and people getting out as fast as I could. I walked down the street and got to my car quickly.
     He had stopped at the front and kicked at the ground. He looked mad. Mad at himself I hope.
   I drove home and surprisingly Katrina was there.
"Whyyyyy are you home?" She asked me. I smiled.
   "What ya want me to leave?" I asked her. She shook her head no with a smile. I sat down next to her and told her what had happened.
   She told me to ignore it and we continued to watch some gay ass movie she wanted to watch.
    "Are you going to Sams tonight?" I asked her. She nodded and I just said okay. I was going to just stay home and have a party for one I guess.
   Believe it or not I'm pretty fun by myself. Like I crack myself up and I just have a damn good time.
        "I'll be back soon" she said as she got to the door.
"Okay mom" I said. She turned around giving me a fake glare and I giggled. She left and I locked the doors. I went upstairs and started looking through my computer.
    "Texas is nice..." I mumbled to myself as I looked through some pictures of apartments.
     It was time for a change. Maybe I'd go for a couple months to see how I like it. But all I know is I need a break from California and I need a break from seeing Colby Brock.