I'm here

Chapter five

*3 days since me and kev have been talking*
It's finally Friday and I have a feeling this weekend is going to be littyyy!!!😜
Me and kev have been talking for 3 days straight and I can't wait to go home and talk with him.
*skip to bus*
As soon as I got on the bus I put on my music and texted Justin... I told him that I needed to talk to him about my feelings bc
Ever since I moved I've been low and the only thing that made me keep my head high was TBD🙁 but when I told him how I felt... all he kept saying was "ohhhh" or "wow" and "I'm sorry you feel that way" he didn't even say everything was gonna be okay or tell me he was there for me....which made me feel super bad.
I decided to focus on my music the whole bus ride and ignore social media and people who are texting me.
As soon as I got home my mom left a note saying she was gonna be out for a few hours with my step dad which was fine with me since I love being home alone.
Kev texted me, he asked how was my day and I said it was fine.(I lied☹️) I lied bc I didn't want him to worry about me and my boyfriend but he saw right through that lie.
Kev: come on I'm fr how was your day ma?
Me: it was good until I got on the bus...
Kev: why wassup?
Me: umm I tried telling Justin my feelings and he wasn't even there for me🙁 so it ruined my day.
Kev: maybe I can make you feel better...ft?
Before I could even answer back my phone started ringing... "heyyyyy" kev said in a really loud voice. "Heyyyyy" I said imitating his voice. When me and kev got deeper into conversation that's when I let everything go and spilled my feelings out... I hesitated a little bit but all he kept saying was... "I'm here" reminding me that he was there for me and that honestly made me feel so good. Soon after that kev and I hung up the phone and I took a quick shower, he said he was going to Devs house and that he was gonna call me when he gets there so I was just chillin and waiting for his call...while I was waiting Justin texted me😩(whyyyyy)
Justin: can we ft?
Me: sure whatever...
My phone rings..... I pick up the phone and see Justin's face, "hey"
"Hi Justin", "we need to talk" is what justin said. "Wassup" "well I just wanna know who is that boy commenting under your photos?" "Who" I said confused "keviekev" (ohhhhh now he cares) "that's a friend of mine why?" "He looks familiar, isn't he from that boy group you like?" " yeahhhh"I said while smiling...(a lil mistake) "well I don't like that, bc you my gf and he's commenting all up on your photos , that makes me look bad" at this moment I start to get mad bc since when does he freaking care? If he doesn't care about my feelings then why does he wanna be with me?!?!?!
We end up getting in an argument and I hang up on him,at this point I am super mad and frustrated so I start to cry. I thought we were gonna last but I can't with Justin anymore.
My phone rings... it's Kevin but I don't pick up. He can't see me like this I've been crying for a nice 30 minuets and I look like a mess. Kevin calls 2 more times but I still don't answer...
*text message*
Kev: yoo shawty you good?
Me: yeah I'm fine I'm just in the shower call you later?
Kev: umm sure okay
I feel like he knew I was lying but decided to go with it... idc. I shut my phone off. I cried so much that when I laid on my bed I fell asleep.