you gave me panic attacks
and called it love
you broke me
but I guess that's love too
every word I write about you
is a love letter
to the whole village of people
who raised me
and kept me from becoming you
all those who were there
when you were not
all those who loved me
when you did not
i thought your grin was a thing
of love
but that smile drips venomous words
words that rip me to pieces
and push me around until I fall
now the arms that used to hug me
hold me back from moving on
and for now
you have a hold on me
you've sent my mind to battle
and pulled me apart at the seams
they told me people
would break my heart
little did I know
the first would be you
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142 words
written october 2017
published january 24, 2018
