In a world of just in time

Chapter 13

7 weeks and 1 day pregnant

Elena's POV

Yesterday Damon was so sweet, the way he cared for me and actually cheering me up but I wasn't able to talk to him. I want to but I just can't find the words. I am surprised but also relieved that he didn't keep asking questions because I would not have been able to answer them. There is so much I want to say to Damon and tell him, I just hope one day I am able to.

He is seems like such a great person, I am glad he's the one that knocked me up because I think if it was anyone else I would have to get an abortion. I know that if I am able to get though this pregnancy and give birth I won't be able to raise the baby but I trust that Damon will be able to.

After school finished yesterday Damon insisted that I go to his place, or the doctor, well basically that I go anywhere but back home but I don't have a choice. I have to go home. I can't just run away. But Damon wouldn't leave me alone so when he went to pull his car around to the front of the school I quickly ran onto a bus. I feel bad for just leaving him but I didn't have any other choice. The more I think about it the more I regret letting Damon see what my dad does to me, but we are a part of each other's life now so I guess he has a to know. Well that's what I keep telling myself anyway.

My dad has gone away for a few days, I don't know where and I don't want to know. I'm sitting curled up reading my school notes. I think I am doing better in class. I will find out when I get the results back from my exams.

I usually enjoy the time that my dad is away, all I have to deal with is the cold and being hungry but now I am pregnant all I feel is misery. I am hungry and if I am hungry I am sure the baby is. I am also worried that my morning sickness is starting because I feel so sick. It's weird thinking that I am always carrying this baby with around and I will for awhile still but I have never felt so alone. I look over myself to see the bruises, cuts and blood stains. I can see almost every bone and I am constantly cold. Everything has got worse since I got pregnant and what will happen when I start showing? How will my dad react?

I start sobbing quietly, as I try to contain all of the sadness that I have been bottling up. I just want someone to look after me. Is that too much to ask for? I keep thinking that I should leave and find Damon. He said he cares about me but I can't leave the house. The one time I dared to leave the house when my dad went away he broke my leg saying "I will make sure you don't leave again."

But I have to think that now I am just trying to keep myself alive but the baby inside me also. A few ago I didn't care what happened to it but now that has changed so much. I love it.

I slowly crawl out from underneath the house. My legs feel stiff and I can hardly move. I want to go to Damon, I feel safe when I am with him but I don't know how to get there. I keep trying to convince myself to leave.

He won't be back all weekend. It's okay. He didn't chain you up so leave.

But what if he does come back?! He'll hurt you and maybe kill your baby.

I just stand there for awhile until I move reluctantly to the front of the house. I will come back today. He will never know that I left.

I don't know why but I need to see Damon. Before I got pregnant I was able to look after myself but now I feel I need to be protected and cared for.

After what felt like hours I reached the grill. Teenage hang out. I have been here a few times but not enough to be known by any one in there. I walked in to use the restrooms. Using the water from a sick to try to clean my face a little. I went and sat at a table in the corner hoping no one would see me. I wanted to go to Damon but as I was walking I realised I have no idea where he is, where he lives. I should have never left my house. What is wrong with me?

You are an idiot! Better off gone.

"No." I buried my head in my hands.

Damon's POV

"Damon you need to start talking about this. So far you are doing very well I will admit, you are doing well in school, saving a lot of money and will do well in the future I think but me and your father know you need help but you are not saying anything." My mum says as we get out of the car.

Ever since the whole pregnancy situation came along this is all I hear about. It's just one lecture after another but at least they are not angry anymore.

"But Elena doesn't want to talk about it. What am I supposed to do? I don't understand our situation or what we are going to do." I said walking a little in front of my parents.

"That poor girl has a lot of troubles. She needs a lot of guidance. I hope her family helps her." My mum said as we all walked in.

Yes Elena does have troubles but she's all alone. I want to help her but I fear there is nothing I can do. Especially when she doesn't talk or accept my help.

We sat down at a table, my parents on one side an me on the other. They were discussing amongst themselves about the baby, where it will live, money for a college fund, basically everything I should be thinking about. "Damon will still need to meet Elena and talk with her." My dad said breaking me out of my trance. "I know she's just delicate right now. I am going use the restroom."

I stood up and walked away leaving them to discuss the situation again. I swear they are obsessed. It's mine and Elena's baby, our baby, and we don't even talk about it whereas they talk about it nonstop.

As I left the toilets I could hear someone talking to themselves. "Leave me alone now... It's not my fault... please go... no... no... no" I looked around to see who was talking, only to see a very familiar figure huddled on one of the chairs.

"Elena?" I asked, she immediately looked up and wiped away her tears quickly leaving slight red marks on her face where she wiped to hard. I sat down next to her, "what are you doing here?" I asked.

"I just came out for lunch but I should really be leaving now." She said quickly as she pulled herself up. "You don't have to go. You can come sit with me and my parents." I wanted her to stay with me. "I already ate so I am going to leave. Bye Damon."

She walked away quickly and out the grill before I could say anything else. I went to run after her but I decided against it. Clearly she doesn't want to talk to me. It's not like we are dating or even friends so I can't expect her to open up to me.

I walk back to my parents. Sitting down I hear them discussing my college plans and what work I should go into. Honestly I don't want to think about my future. I need to stay focused on the present. I have been debating with myself as to whether I should tell them about Elena but I decided not to. It's her life not mine. I have no idea what she is going through.

When did everything get so hard.

"Son are you listening to us?" My dad says as we are half way through our meal. "No sorry." I reply looking down. "Your mother and I were just discussing your situation again and based on the way you and Elena are behaving we do not believe you are at all ready to be parents. This behaviour needs to change."

"Okay I have had enough." I say as I stand up from the table. "I get that what I have done is bad but there is no changing it now. And I have time to get ready, this is all still very new. I have a lot to deal with and I would appreciate it if you would both stop! Stop discussing what I am going to do because at the end of the day I will be the one deciding. I am glad that you are kind of onboard with mine and Elena's situation but I've had enough. Stop making decisions for me!" I walked away immediately, leaving the grill and walking further away.

I know I should not have snapped at them but I am stressed right now. And no one understands.