Encounters with the mafia

Chapter 13

Taliyah

I had this throbbing headache that wouldn't go away, my eye leads felt heavy, I couldn't lift them. I tried to move my hands but they would listen to me. I felt like a vegetable, like I was just floating in the clouds but everything was white around me.

From a distance I could hear ... what was I hearing was that laughter or sobbing?, I was so confused.. nothing made sense. What time was it. A trembling thought came to me.
Am I dead?

What if I am... how did I die .... did the monster get to me... my heart clenched at that thought. "Taliyah!"

I jumped as the someone suddenly called my name...who said that? Turning around all I saw was white. "Taliyah!"

I heard it again... I must be going crazy....
but I wasn't for in the distance... a figure was approaching ... coming nearer and nearer. I was anxious to see who it was but was also scared. What if this person was here to hurt me.
Then the person face was clear and tears welled in my eyes. Is that who I think it is.
"Mom?" I questioned in a trembling voice..

"My dearest child .. you have grown so much.. I am so proud of you." She said as she came nearer.she wrapped her arms around me and held me firmly.
How is this even possible... I must be dead then.

As if reading my mind she responded.. "no my sweet child you have a lot of life ahead of you... no that I am proud of both you and your sister of who y'all have become. I just here to tell you keep fighting."
A tear rolled down her cheek and she started to fade away.

"No no no... mom don't go I need you..... I have so many questions!" I pleaded trying to grab her but to no avail for she was like a ghost.
"Keep fighting.. I love you."her voice said in thin air. And like that she was gone... she went so fast I didn't even say I love you back.

Bring my hand to my hair ... i sighed as her words kept replaying in my head. Looking down at my hands they looked like they were fading as well. What the hell is going on!
I continued to fade through thin air just like my mother not knowing what to do but her words kept replaying in my head.

My eyes shot open! There I was in my room with many wires plugged to my arm and a ventilator attached to my nostrils... what happened to me? As if on que .. memories from last night came flooding back to me. I tried to kill myself!

Oh no what have I done... I am so ashamed I should of fight the pain away... I don't think I can face anyone. The thought of disappointment on their facing brought tears to my eyes. Sitting up, fighting through the warning my body was giving I brought my hands to my chest and sobbed as quietly as possible. What will Tanya think, what will Kayla think. I betrayed the people that cared for me. The thought felt like a stab to my heart .... what will Adrian think?

About 20 minutes later my crying died down and I sat in misery afraid to call anyone for I didn't want to see their face. But my wish was short lived when in came Tracy. She looked shock to see my sitting up wide awake but she quickly covered it up with a smile. Approaching my bed she handing my a glass of water and I accepted it gracefully for my throats was killing me. Once I was done I stared everywhere except for her face for I didn't want to see what I her eyes held.

She didn't push the matter as she checked my vitals and breathing, asking simple questions like... Am I tired, what hurts, is my vision blurry. Once she was done with my check up she stood there burning holes in the side of my head... still I don't look up at her. I prayed she would just say what she had to tell me and leave , it would hurt a little less but the longer it took the more anxiety I got .

"Tay... I really need to talk to you."she said as she sat on the edge of the bed and stared straight into my eyes... there was no escaping eye contact I had to look. Her eyes held many emotions only a few I could recognize.... fear, pity, relief but nowhere did I find disappointment... this made me release a breath I was holding. Nodding I let her continue..I hope the disappointment doesn't show in her voice.

"We all know what you did.... and we are not here to judge you ... we all have our own battles to fight and no ones perfect ... but what I want you to no is that we are here to help.. don't be afraid to reach out of there are many people who love you." He eyes pooled with tears as she put her hand on my shoulder... "you are part of our family now" she whispered and I held back the tears that were fighting to fall. Nodding my head swiftly i told her I understand because I was speechless. Giving me a small smile she kissed my cheeks and told me she would get the others before she left.

Many thought ran through my head as she left ... she said she didn't judge me.. she said that she was here to help and most importantly she said that I was part of the family. I haven't heard that word in years ... that word lost meaning to me a long time ago but here I was been classified as family. Holding on a breath I told myself I won't cry.

Then in badged in Kayla and Tanya... looking so restless yet they still had the energy to run up to my bed and wrap me into death gripping hug. I quietly squeezed out as my breathing was being affected... "guys i can't breath," that got them to release me immediately. Taking in a deep breath I stared at them... they looked as though they just saw me dead. Sighing I said " it ok guys you didn't hurt me..I'm glad you guys care.

The facial expressions relaxed but their eyes held many emotions just like Tracy but their sadness was more dominant. I wrecked my brain to try and break the awkwardness and thick atmosphere but nothing came to mind, so I looked down at my hands and started to fiddle with my fingers.

Kayla broke the silence first.. " Taliyah you scared me ... she paused for a second 'us' to death. We can't loose you girl... we love you so so sooo much. She stressed on the soooo ... which made me giggle. Don't you ever do that again.. talk to me when you feeling down or imma beat that ass and you will see the real Kayla she said playfully." That made me smile but I didn't miss the sadness that flashed through her eyes... I also don't miss how quiet Tanya was ... and knowing her from before she is not the kind to give little jokes... so she was the one mostly likely to show dissatisfaction.

I waited for her rapt but it never came .. she just bursted into tears which made my heart ache as I now realized how much pain she was going through ... it was all because of me. I just had to mess it up like I always do.

Coming closer she hugged me very fragile like I was going to break if she wasn't careful ... through her sobs she tried to speak.. please 'sob' don't 'sob' ever 'sob' do that 'sob' again ... you just came back into my life ..... I can't loose you" she did as her crying died down.. I can't loose you she repeated ... you are the only sister I have ... please tell me when you need me I will be there."

Kayla interrupted saying we are all there.. " Tanya, Tracy, me, Vince and Adrian." At the mention of his name I realized he wasn't there.... everyone may have forgiven me but he doesn't seem as though he did. Kayla read my express replying quietly " he left." That confirmed my speculation... he probably hates me!

"No!" Kayla answered immediately... huh can she read minds
Giggling she said "you that out loud."
Embarrassment was clear on my face but I let her explain herself.
He doesn't hate you trust me...knowing my brother he is probably mad at himself for not being there for you ... so he went to clear some steam. Heck we all are upset with ourselves for not being there for you."
"But it wasn't you guys fault" I said with sincerity.

"That doesn't matter now ... you got us and we got you that all that matters" Kayla said as we all snuggles on the bed together, enjoying each other's company.

Before we knew it from all the chaos ... fatigue came kicking in .. and we all closed our eyes to be met with darkness but before slumber took over the words whispered in my head.

"Keep fighting.. I love you"

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