Never Letting Go - Cody Simpson Fanfic

Chapter 5

"Have you written anything recently?" "I have." "Annnnd?" "You can hear it soon. Not now." He dismissed. "How come I have to show you but you don't have to show me?" "If you show me yours, I'll show you mine." Cody smirked.

"I'm being serious. Stop being dirty." I pushed him. "I didn't ask you to show it to me. You just showed me but I will share it with you. Not now though." "What shall we do?" I asked. "You're not gonna make me leave?" He sounded shocked. "If you going didn't leave me home alone I would make you go." "You don't have to be so strong all the time, Lauren." "I just told you I was scared of being home alone."

Cody let out a sigh. "You're afraid to admit that you don't want me to leave. The reason you're afraid to do it is because you're afraid of rejection." "I'm tired of people thinking they know what I'm thinking. I'm not a book, you can't read me." I got off the bed.

"You can block me out all you want but you know I will find the weakest part of your wall and knock it down again." "Stop with your riddles. They confuse me." I said. Cody pulled me onto his lap.

"You're a very special girl, you know that?" "How special?" "I can't even put it into words." He whispered with his lips to my ear. I turned to kiss him but he pushed me away. "Don't reject me." I begged. "It messes with your head." "You're like a drug." "I'm sorry." "Just kiss me?" "I can't." He shook his head.

"You can. Last night you kissed me. Last night you did more than just kiss me." "We were drunk." "It meant nothing?" "It was everything I've wanted for the last two months. Picturing it didn't compare to going through with it. It's as if your body is sculptured to fit mine. We fit together. It works." He laid back.

I got off his lap and rested my head on the pillow. Cody rested his head in my lap. I played with his hair as I took in all of his features. Beauty at it's purest. "Maybe someone up there wants us to fight for each other." Cody broke the silence after what felt like forever.

"Why do we have to fight this hard?" "Our love is strong enough to make it through." "I want you, Cody." I felt tears form in my eyes. "Then have me." "It's not that easy." "I'll earn your trust." "I'm scared that maybe I won't be able to trust you again." I wiped away a tear which had escaped my eye.

Cody sat up and ran his hand up my leg. He paused as he noticed bumps on my right hip. I closed my eyes tightly hoping he wouldn't expose my skin. He pulled my boy shorts down to uncover my hip. "Lauren.." He gasped in a hushed tone.

"I- You weren't supposed to see that." I pushed his hand away. "Why would you- How long ag- Is that my fault?" He managed to choke. I shrugged my shoulders. Cody examined my wrists and the rest of my body. "I needed to find a place where my scars wouldn't be seen." I told him.

Cody couldn't find words to say. He just stared. He had glossy eyes. I knew it wouldn't be long until tears escaped. "I tried not to but physical pain is easier to deal with than emotional pain. This isn't your fault. It's not. I promise. You're not the only one who's caused pain these last few months. Please don't blame yourself."

He got up and walked towards the wall. I watched in silence as he rested his forehead on the wall. Cody clenched his fists. I jumped as he punched the wall. He did it again. "Stop! You're going to hurt yourself!" I jumped off the bed and stood in the small gap between him and the wall.

"You've hurt yourself." He couldn't look me in the eye. "My baby.." He whispered. I wiped his tears away. "Why didn't I notice them last night? You were completely naked yet I was too focused on the pleasure to realize you were broken. I'm so selfish." He shook his head at himself.

"You made me feel good. I haven't felt that in a while. I felt comfortable. Don't be mad at yourself for what you didn't do." "You're a beautiful young girl. You know that? You're out of this would. So beautiful. Inside and out. So precious." He cupped my face. "I'll get us through this. We'll make it." "Keep me safe." I begged.