Dark Thoughts

Help Me.

Help me
Stop me
From falling
From think this way...
Please God.
Help me
Save me
I'm drowning.
I'm falling.
Systems failing
I'm nobody.
Nothing.
There's nothing left of me.
Nothing left to save.
Because you have all the pieces.
You have all of me in your hands.
And you've played with it.
Broken it
Cracked it
Threw it away like it was garbage.
Now look what you've done.
Look at what you did to me Alec.
I'm never okay anymore.
I make too many mistakes to count.
I have no confidence.
No self esteem.
No feeling of Love.
It's all gone..
Gone...
Gone forever.
Look at what you've done.
I'm a shattered mirror, with only the raw wood remaining. Because you be tore the glass off with gloved hands, while you've left me to bleed because a piece of me has been ripped away from me.
I have no reason to live.
Because you were my only reason.
Now what am I supposed to do?
Marcus is trying to sToP me. He CAN'T.
Because only caring about me when I physically hurt myself isn't helping me.
The only people who care are three.
Leslie
Yasmin
Kyle.
They are the ones who care about me.
I thought I could trust you two.
I was wrong
So wrong.
You don't care.
You just don't want somebody's blood stained on your calloused, sweaty hands.
You don't want my blood on your hands, your names written in my bloody ink.