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Loje

"I don't know why I even went to the nail shop with her. I knew something was up when she called me!" I said pacing back and forth in my room while William sat on my bed.
"Babe. Calm down. Tell me what's wrong! What happened?!"
"That bitch. She has something coming for her. Why would she even say that? Who did she get that from? Her jokes weren't even funny. What if I said that to her? She wouldn't be too happy."
"Lo? Loje! WHAT DID SHE SAY!"
"Oh you don't want to know! It's such a low blow. Even low for her!"
"Alright don't tell me."
I took a long breath before standing in front of William and asking him this. I know this can't possibly be true. But I just need assurance that she's lying. "Did....."
"Did what?"
"Did..... Did you and...... Did you..."
"Babe. Wait. I have something to tell you."
"Something to tell me? Something to tell me like WHAT? OH MY GOSH! It's true! Isn't it!!!"
"Loje"
"WILLIAM HOW COULD YOU? Tell me it's not true." Tears we're rolling down my face and I could barely see. "WILLIAM TELL ME SHE'S lying. Tell me you didn't. You wouldn't. You couldn't. I know you couldn't because you love me and you always said you'd wait for me. I know you wouldn't cheat on me WILLIAM! Why.... why would Makyia say those things William? William.... PLEASEEE IM BEGGING YOU. Please tell me it's not true." I was crying like I just lost my dog and I couldn't hold any tears back. I knew in the back of my mind it was a lie.
"Baby-"
"DID YOU AT ANY TIME WILLIAM, HAVE SEX WITH ANOTHER GIRl?"
"LO-"
"Yes or no?" He was holding my hands as I cried and yelled at him.
"LOJE"
"YES OR FUCKING NO WILLIAM."
"YES BUT BAB-."
"WITH............Wit....WITH MY BESTFRIEND? With Maka? WITH MAKAYLAN?! William you fucked my bestfriend?"
"Loje please, I can explain. It was a mistake. We didn't"
"We" I said cutting him off? "Y'all are a thing now? Since when did y'all become a we? Since you stuck your dick in here huh?
"Babe-."
"GET OUT!.........." He sat there staring at me with his head down. "GET THE FUCK OUUUTTTTTTT! We are done. Don't ever part your lips to talk to me again. Go fuck yourself WILLIAM!" I sat on my floor, and continued to cry as he walked towards my bedroom door. "You can leave my car key I gave you in the front and let yourself out."
"Loje" he said STILL in my room.
"GET OUT MY FUCKING HOUSE BEFORE I CALL THE POLICE AND MY MOM."
When I heard him close the door, everything in me just broke down. I felt so betrayed. If Kyia knew, I can only imagine the whole school knows. How could Maka even do this to me? Lord why? Where did I go wrong? I JUST gave this boy my fucking virginity. I couldn't stop from crying as I paced my room. I saw our picture on my dresser and threw it at the wall!
"I HATE YOU!!" I screamed at the picture. "How could you do this to me!"
Everything in my room I started tearing apart.
"How could you be so stupid Loje! You knew that Bitch was a hoe. How could you befriend a slut?"
"I HAAAATTEEEEEE YOUUUU" I screamed at the top of my lungs inside my pillow.
Looking over I saw the heart shaped candle holder he bought me. "I'll kill him with this shit" I said walking towards the candle.
"Ouchhhhhhhhhhhh. OHHH MY GOSHH. Fuck!" I screamed out as I said falling to the ground." I stepped on a piece of glass from the stupid picture. "Fuck" I said as I sat there crying. Now I'm bleeding while he's out there probably fucking her right now. I would get a band-Aid but I'd rather bleed to death than get up. I feel so defeated right now. I can't do anything but cry as I hold my foot.
"Lord How could they do this to me? Please tell me this is a dream!" What did I do to deserve this.
"Loje!" My mother yelled from downstairs. She must have just gotten home.
I didn't answer her, I was too busy crying to even talk or argue with her right now.
"Loje do you not here me calling you?" She said as she stormed in my room. "Oh my Goodness Loje. What the hell happened in here?"
She still hasn't noticed me crying since my back was turned away from her and I still didn't bother to answer her.
"Loje! She said walking towards me. "Loje? What is the matter? Why in the world are you bleeding? What happened in here and why are you crying?"
I jumped into her arms and continued to cry while hugging her. "Momma..." I could barely breathe from crying my eyes out. "Momma it's over. We're over Momma." I cried into her shoulders as she held and hugged me back.
"Loje. Why are you bleeding."
"I'm so stupid mom. I stepped on the picture I broke. I just want to bleed to death Momma. Please let me die. I don't want to be here anymore. How could he do this to me. He cheated on me and just left me here Momma. I trusted him. He was all I had and now I have nobody."
"Loje. Baby. That boy does not define you. You are a strong, beautiful, smart young girl. You wouldn't bleed to death even if I didn't put a Band-Aid on this Lo. It's just a minor cut. But baby, never say that. You have TOO much to live for. Mama pushes you so hard because I know what you're capable of. And that la dumb pretty boy can not and will not take that from you, you hear me? You are so much better than crying over him Loje. And you always have Maka, don't you?"
I cried harder as she said her name. "No Mama, I don't have her either. Please don't make me go to school tomorrow."
"You can not run away from your problems, I'm sure you will get through it Loje. It's your first day of school. You have to go."
"Please leave me alone mother, I just want to be alone. Please"
She got up and walked out my room closing my door.
To add to it, I then heard my phone ring, I was getting a call from Makaylan! Of all fucking people.
"FUCKKKK YOU" I said as I threw my phone at the wall and broke it. "But karma is a bitch."