No Wings

When I Was Younger, I Thought I Lived the Same Life as Everyone Else

When I was younger,

I was so happy.

Looking back, I can see

ignorance is truly bliss.

I used to think I was normal.

I thought my life was average.

I assumed I had no extra blockage.

I swore I was just like everyone else.

I thought: Every kid has a drunk mommy,

and everyone has a missing daddy.

A brother who treated you like a flea.

Everyone lives the same life as me.

Then, I went to middle school,

and everything changed.

My views got completely rearranged.

I have never lived like everyone else.

I started seeing life as unfair.

I saw my brother's words as abusive.

I was no longer dismissive

to the way that I lived.

Not everybody is told to kill themselves

after getting caught cutting themselves.

Inside my head, my therapist delves.

I hide behind shelves.

Not everyone gets grounded

for trying to commit suicide.

Normalcy is what I wish to find.

I dream of equal opportunity.

Why do I get grounded for months?

What lesson will that teach?

Can't you practice what you preach?

I wish I lived like most others.

I wish I didn't live my life.

I want to live like my friends.

They get grounded for a day, the end.

No beatings, no yelling, no reprimands.

I work and I work,

but it is just useless.

I'm never good enough for Mrs. Boneless.

Would anyone like to trade lives?

Or have I said too much?

Would you if I hadn't said so much?

God, I need a fucking crutch

to keep living like this.

When I was younger,

I thought I lived normally.

Now, I can't agree.

I wish I couldn't remember.