As we stand together (carl grimes /twd fan fic)

just friends . nothing more

I felt him nod above my head.

we walked hand in hand out of the cell leaving the moment behind.

I'M glad were becoming friends again. nothing more.

I let go if his hand as I saw Hershel walking towards Maggie.

I know he'll know what happened.

"Hershel. my sister. where is she? "I asked in a panicked matter.

"she came to me last night. me and Dr.SubrManiam were up late. we separated the sick into cell block D" he said pointing to the different block.

I bit my lip again. it became throbbing. ugh.

I turned around to be greeted with Carl's face inches from mine.

"woah "I giggled and patted his chest "good talk"I laughed as I nicely pushed him away.

"sorry" he smirked

I started walking to where Hershel directed me.

"woah. you can't go in there. it's a quarantine zone. "he said grabbing my shoulder.

"so I can't see my sister. this is unfair.  I demand to see her. I need to see her I didnt say bye..or or. that I loved her ."I said .beginning to have an anxiety attack .

I ran to my cell carl following close behind and sat against the bed frame trying to control my breathing .

one

two

three .

one two three

I counted in my head .

"she will be fine .in hershels hands .consider her better already ."

he said trying to comfort me .

"if he is so good. why isn't he in their helping them right now " I said in annoyance .

"well .he .he might be busy "he scratched his neck .

I got up breathing steadily .

"carl are we friends again.like where I can trust you?" I asked to keep my mind from going insane from fright .

"y-yeah of course why?"he stuttered obviously unsure .

"I dunno .I feel I just need a friend during times like this ..ya'know "I asked sitting down on the bottom bunk .my head leaning uncomfortably off my neck .

he sat down next to me causing me to shift closer to him .he was heavier .

"yeah I know .its good having someone my age .someone I actually know "he replied looking at his hands .

"I'm sorry for being so rude .I didn't mean to ...back at school ." I said uncomfortably.

"its alright .i guess I was being rude to" he said fumbling with his hands.

"no of course not .well maybe .I think I was just jealous ."I stated automatically regretting it .

"why were you jealous of me .?"he asked confused .I didn't answer .

"or were you jealous of ..Samantha "he said surprised .

bingo

"n-no if course not .I mean .maybe a little I liked you but not a lot ."I said running my mouth .

I hears him laugh a little behind His smirk . he kind of had a cute smirk.

friends ..nothing more .

friends ..nothing. more ..

I kept saying to myself .

I turned to look at him

but I caught him already starring at me .

we stared intensely .at his very pretty blue eyes .

"i-i-" I started but couldn't make out the words .

"maybe we.could uh ...could .I don't know "Carl said breaking the silence but not the stare .we both knew what we wanted to do .

friends nothing more

"just friends nothing more" .I accidentally said aloud .

''shit" I mumbled .

he lifted up his hand and placed it on my shoulder . my eyes trailed to his hand . the thirst for him couldn't be bigger .I wanted him .bad . but I didn't I just wanted to be friends but him . I couldn't resist .

"oh sorry if that is how you feel"he said slowly .

we moved almost in sync closer to each other until inches apart .

I've never had my first kiss yet .

I wonder if he has .I wanted to ask but how awkward would that be .

"umm random question ..you and Sam .have you ever ..kissed ?"I awkwardly asked wishing I didnt .

he blushed wildly .

"no-no" he trailed off .

okay

I bit my lip sucking it in .

his hand moved from my shoulder to my lip . he gently touched it .feeling it out from my mouth .

I saw as he bit his own .I felt under a spell . I felt my face grow red as I watched his movement of his fingers gently across my bottom lip .the space between us descended and are noses nearly touched .I tilted my head to the right him doing the same .I slowly moved forewords and felt our lips touch .

I didn't know what to do with mY hands so I placed them on his back .he did the same to mine . I felt his teeth against my lip as he smiled and I did same .he pulled me in closer and it was longer than expected .

I pushed off of him and stared Into his eyes in fear .

"what .i-i didn't mean too .I swear ."I said my eyes widened and I stood up .

he got up from his seat and tried grabbing my arm .I pulled away from him .

"emilie - it its fine ."he stuttered .

"nonnono its not. just friends .nothing more .I can't handle this ." I said I began pacing  around the room .

"no Emilie I'm sorry .did I do something wrong.?" he asked worried.

I stopped and looked at him .

"no! of course not .it was ...was amazing .I would do it again .I would want to do it again .really want to .."I said slowly stopping  .he stepped closer and closer to me .

"I just ..can't .but I want to .I've never done that .that was my first kiss ."

he grabbed both my hands while I was distracted and pulled me into his arms into a hug .he lifted his head up giving me a chance to look at him .while he had his chance of me being open, he forced his lips on mine ,us moving along with our lips .are body's still intact as our lips . my hands guided to the back of his neck tugging at the small hairs .

we pulled away from each other .

carl bit his lip starring at me .

"just friends. nothing .more "he winked .I blushed .