The Black Ribbon Angel

The List

"Dinner is ready" He said from the dinning table. I got off from the living room couch and made my way to the dinning table. I've been thinking about what I was told from the therapy lesson yesterday. I couldn't keep his words out of my mind. For some reason they kept on playing in my mind on repeat and never ceasing. It lingers in my mind, but hasn't seemed to be absorbed.... Just yet.

As I make my way to the dinning table I see him sitting down with our plates of food. Smiling brightly and watching me as I take my seat...

"You've been thinking a lot about yesterday, Haven't you? You seem as if you're in deep thought, almost as if you aren't here at the moment." He states "I know it's a lot to think about, so how about we go out tomorrow and just have fun. So you can relax.. I know it will be hard, but I'm here for you." He reaches out and places his hand on top of mine in a calm comforting way.

Go out tomorrow? That would be nice, but he works all the time... How can we go out then?

"I would like to go out, but how can we if you work? Are we going when you come back from work?" I question him. His eyebrows jump up with mischief.

"I have it off tomorrow, so it would be perfect to go out and have some fun before your next therapy lesson. They will slowly help you, but it can be emotionally contradicting. So I want you to just open up to me and let loose all of your worries. And.." He says as he picks up two notebooks that was on the table. "I believe the only way for you to be comfortable enough for me to help is if we get to know each other and have a mutual bond or connection. By hanging out and opening up to each other. We can ask questions and see what we have in common. Let's start off by listing things we like and dislike."

He hands me a notebook and a pencil, we both start listing things we like or dislike. Maybe something like this can help me not only to trust him, but get along with someone I have to live with.

Mhmm... 

Things I like:

Puppies 

Sunset

Dancing

Fairs or theme parks

Reading

Strawberry ice cream

Funnel Cake

Tattoos

Hoodies

*The list goes on and on* but the last thing listed was ...

Cuddling .... The embrace of a loved one ... *drip* 

My vision starts to become watery as I was writing the list, but only until I wrote the last thing I enjoyed.. Was a single tear fell and landed perfectly on top of the last words.. (loved one) ... I wiped any evidence of a tear and continued to proceed to the next list. 

Things I dislike:

Fake love

lonliness

betrayal

LAIRS

pain

rain

rapists

abusers 

I looked up and give him the notebook once I was finished with my list. He took my list into his hands and exchanged me his.

I took it into my hands and let my eyes explore the page for similarities 

Things I like about you:

Your strength, your smile, the sound of excitement when you smell the aroma of my food, your shy and timid posture (The way she looks down and slouches), your naturally curly hair, your strong bold eyes. 

Things I don't like about you: 

None, there's nothing to dislike about you.

Shocked by his list, I look up and give him the "What in the world look?"

"Hahaha, I cheated.." He chuckled "It's about learning about you and helping you. I'm just a helper, you can learn about me later.." his eyes look up and down my lists "You have a lot more things you like, then how many things you dislike. You dislike those or things that hurt you, but have tons of things you love. Which is amazing to see, let's try to focus on the things you love and add fun to them. Let's change the focus from sad things or dislike, to the good and things you love. So ..... Let's go to the fair tomorrow, there's actually one in town right now." his voice slowly increased with excitement as he spoke the last sentence.

"Okay!" I agreed quickly. The thought of going to the fair shook the inner child in me. The fair was probably the only great memory I had as a child, the smell of cotton candy and funnel cakes in the air. The long lines of laughing and smiling people. It's as if I could feel their joy, the joy of having a loving family to surround yourself with. The beautiful families I would see, hoping one day I would be in a family like that.

After dinner I went to my bed with a smile on my face, staring at the ceiling without any hint of tiredness in sight. Every inch of my body was filled with energy once he mentioned the fair. Maybe he is right, focusing on the good things and accepting that my birth has nothing to do with my worth. Just maybe I can be happy for once... Just maybe .. I can still have hope.

-Tomorrow-

Once the sun rose and the birds began to sing, My body awoken as if it knew the day began at that exact second. Once the sun rises, my day would begin.. Finally a day with some joy in its forecast is near.... Thanks to him 

_____ Author's note:

I'm so sorry for taking forever to update.. I've been so caught in personal issues. So many things happening in my life. I hope you will enjoy this very short update, I will also update my other story tomorrow~~

Love,

Jaimankk 

P.S. Pray for me loves XOXO

P.S.S. I might be writing another story about Taehyung soon~~~ c; 

Also Janae is African American

Maryssa from my RM story is Hispanic

V's love interest will be Caucasian

I want to write stories of girls of different races, I don't want to make them of the same race. I want BTS to fall in love with people of multiple backgrounds.  <3