Smile (Gay one shots)

Phan

It was New Years Eve, and Phil would be home at any minute. I got out of the shower and started drying myself off.

I didn't expect him to be home yet. I wrapped the towel around my waist and opened the bathroom door. Phil was standing in the kitchen, staring at his phone as he waited on his coffee.

I snuck through the house and to my bedroom. I quickly got dressed and fixed my hair. I sighed glancing at my phone 10:50.

I went back to the living room, watching fill as he made his coffee. "You wanna make a livestream for New Years?" I laughed.

"Again Dan? We did that last year. I thought we'd just hang out for once." He laughed.

"Sure." I smiled. As he opened the fridge to put the milk back he blushed, just enough for it to catch my attention. I knew what he was thinking about.

It was obvious that he was gay, and that he had a huge crush on me. He was closet though.

He finished making his coffee and sat beside me on the couch. "We're out of sugar, by the way."

"I'll pick some up from the store tommorow."

"I probably should've got some while I was out."

"Don't sweat it."

I loved his accent, it was a little stronger than mine but it made him sound so hot. I bit my lip as he sat down beside me, I got out my phone so I didn't look suspicious.

He sat on the opposite end of the couch, quietly drinking his coffee as he just stared into nothing.

I glanced over at him and laughed. "Phil. Phil! Snap out of it."

"Huh?"

"Welcome back."

"Huh?"

"You looked like you just entered the fucking 5th dimension." I laughed. The hickey on his neck soon caught my attention, then I remembered his girlfriend.

I hated her. Strongly. Yeah, I can accept that I am jealous. But I hated her the minute I met her.

She had an attitude off camera, and would yell at me and tell me to fuck off. Seeing the hickey on his neck only made it worse.

And ofcourse, I fucked it up. Just like I do everything else.

"Is that a hickey?" I frowned.

"Uhh, yeah. Why?" He laughed, looking over at me.

"Phil, goddamn it." I growled.

"What?"

"Is fucking hate her Phil."

"Why? What's so bad about her?"

"I don't fucking know, She's a cunt!"

"Stop it Dan."

"I'm not gonna fucking stop until you realize how much of a fucking bitch she is. And she's obviously banging other guys, she's a slut."

"Dan!? What the hell has gotten into you?"

Everything fell silent as he waited for me to respond. I realized what I had really just done. I had probably just ruined our friendship. I gave in to the urge burning in my thoughts.

"Phil."

"What?" He growled.

"I... N-nevermind... You'd just hate me..."

I felt tears building in my eyes. He just stared. I couldn't hold it back, I started crying.

I got up and stormed off to my room. I threw myself down on my bed as I tried to force myself to accept that he would never love me.