Room 116 (Austin Carlile + Alan Ashby)

XI

Surprise, surprise. Guess who knocked on our door the next morning. Gielle! Great to see her again!

Austin and I'd slept in separate bunks last night after he'd fallen asleep so exhaustedly that I thought he needed space. Funnily enough, he was the first up to open the door; not that he was excited to see her there.

"Austin!" she screeched and leapt onto my boyfriend. Austin pushed her off in disgust. "What are you doing here?" he groaned. "To see my boyfriend of course." she exclaimed.

I actually laughed at how pathetic this was. "You wont quit it will you? We are not together." Austin grumbled and she raised and eyebrow. Though still in bed and comfy in my duvet, I made enough room to watch the show from my bed. "Austin, you never ended it between us." she complained.

Austin laughed. "Really? Well I'm saying it now. We are through. I have no feelings for you and I never want to see you again." Austin threatened and she gasped. "Why?!" she shouted.

"She never gives up does she?" I mumbled to myself.

"Because you're like this. And because I'm in love somebody else so quit it." Austin retorted. Somebody else, me. I hope, at least. Wait, no he can't tell her! She'll humiliate the both of us.

"Really, who?" she said with a lot of attitude.

"Don't say it," my eyes said.
"Don't say it," my clearing of my throat said.
"Don't say it," my violent cough said.

"Is your friend ill or something?" she asked. "I'm fine, I'll keep it away from you guys though." I said, giving Austin a look. He didn't comprehend nevertheless.

"Yeah, so who is it you're leaving me for?"

No. No. No. No. No.

"It's Alan, is that good enough for you?"

No. No. No. No. No.

"What the fuck? Seriously?"

No. No. Yes. No. No.

"Yes, seriously."

No. No. No. No. No.

She scoffed. "Wow, that's a thin line you've crossed." she said before turning away thus causing Austin to shut the door.

My face was buried in my pillow and I was murmuring 'No." into it. "What's wrong with you?" Austin asked.

"She's going to tell everyone and humiliate us!" I cried and Austin gave me an indifferent look. "She's a snake, but she's not smart enough for that. Don't worry." he remarked as he sat on the floor besides my bunk. He held his hand out behind him so I could latch on. I laid my hand in his and he pulled it forward and kissed my hand.

"It'll be alright, trust me. You wont hear a word of it." he whispered. I hope so.

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I love you. That's what my mind whispers. Why can't I say it out loud? It's been two weeks now and I feel as if Austin and I are drifting away.

Eventually, we'd stopped sharing a bunk. He'd not wake me up so dearly in the morning, just a 'good morning' and a wave. We'd no longer change in front of each other and we had a defined distance between us. I didn't know what happened. We'd rarely go out for walks but when we did, neither of us would talk.

I hadn't touched him nor been in any contact with him for two weeks. He'd be out for a walk while I sat in the camp library. When I returned back to the room, nobody was there. I'd wait, he'd not come back. Yet, he'd be there in the morning.

Gielle had left so I didn't see the issue. Maybe he was bored without her here? I wasn't any fun at all. Why can't I make the effort? Had I given up on him or had he given up on me? There was only a short time left of this camp and I just knew it wouldn't last.