Smiles Can't Be Stitched Completely

Chapter 3: Song-Making

   "Is it bad to stitch a smile~?"

   Freddie was in his room, sitting cross-legged on his neat bed while playing his drum for less than an hour. He had this sudden idea but he wasn't sure if he should make it at first but he did. He felt like it's a good thing.

   "Is it bad to lie for a long while?"

   Firstly, he knew himself that he was suicidal and secondly, he knew his urge to kill himself nearly every single day. It's absolutely painful.

   If one day, he managed to end his life, he thought it'll be good to leave something behind for his friends to hear. Especially but mainly for his 'Kaity-Waity':

   "Tell me, baby, am I worth fighting for~?"

  
   A song.

   "Or would you rather see me~ no more~?"

   Yeah. He's good at making them so why not? But was it a good idea? He wasn't sure. DollFace's words repeated in his head like a broken tape recorder:

   "I'll always be here until you're honestly happy."

   'Honestly happy'? The voices in his head made things worst for him as years past.

   "'She never loves you. She never did!
      Why won't you stop thinking like a kid?'
   The voices, their voices, ringing in my head!
   The voices, their voices, just wants me dead."

   He paused from singing and thought for more lyrics. A minute later, he thought of some and started singing in a loud-but-not-too-loud whisper.

   "Kaity-Waity, I love you so.
    I'm so sorry that I~ have to go.
    I just can't take the pain anymore!
    Anymore~!"

   He took in a breath and paused for a few seconds before continuing.

   "Oh. Anymore.
    (Anymore. Anymore~).
    No no no, not~ anymore.
    (Anymore. Anymore.)
    I can't handle this anymore~!
    Oh oh oh~."

   A picture frame of Freddie and Kaitlynn as kids were hung in front of the wall in front of the grinning boy.

'Kid Freddie' wore bright blue suspenders, a white shirt that was tucked into brown pants while 'Kid Kaitlynn' wore a red and white poofy but elegant-looking dress.

   Her face, however, was the same colour of her dress because of how hard Freddie was hugging her during that time.

Oh, the good memories. He should put some in his song. And he did.

   "The times when I hugged you until you scream,
   'Can you get the fudge off me!'"

   He chuckled shortly.

   "'I will never let you go-!'
   Iwould scream back
  With my big widened smile.
  '-Because you're my Juliet and I'm your Romeo!'

He banged his drums in a steady beat. It sounded happy and fast for a depressing and sad song but that's just what Freddie wanted. To hide the pain within happy beats. Just like some certain Vocaloid songs would.