Romitri One-Shots

Together

The cold water was hitting my skin violently. I threw my head back and a sigh escaped my lips. I was falling apart. And today was a big day. Too important for me to say anything, to show how I was feeling inside. Not even to Dimitri. I had to bear it on my own. A lot of things had happened to me and most of my life I had been alone to bear them. And even when I was surrounded by people, I sometimes felt really alone.

My eyes closed, I held my hand out and turned the water off. I pushed the door of the shower and quickly wrapped a towel around my too skinny body, avoiding to look at myself in the mirror. Lately, I had been going to the gym way more than I used too and the servings in my plate kept on decreasing. I knew that Dimitri had noticed but I was grateful that he didn't say anything. When I wasn't fighting Strigoi or whoever I needed to protect Lissa from, I was jumping at every opportunity to not think. Lately, when I was thinking, no matter what my initial thought was about, the voices in my head were always debating and screaming and every thought was turned into a dark and deep flow of incomprehensible words that were scaring me most of the time. Though when I was fighting or training, these voices would stop resonating in my head and I liked the silence way better than anything else.

Securing the towel around my chest, I opened the door and left the bathroom. Dimitri and I had bought a small house a few miles away from Court so we could head there every day and still have some peace. We had taken time to decorate it and make it feel like home and it was one of the only places where I really liked to be. On every piece of furniture, there were tons of framed pictures of us, our friends and our family.

I walked in the bedroom and dropped my towel on the floor. I grabbed underwear and pulled my hair tie to release my long dark hair. I hadn't cut it in months and it was now falling to my hips. It was cumbersome sometimes but I knew that Dimitri really liked my long hair.

The thought of him sliding his fingers through it made me smile. I grabbed the dress neatly laid down on the bed and put it on. Today was a very special day because it was Viktoria's wedding. She, her sisters and I had been planning it for months. I was glad that she had found someone to share her life with and talking to her - or anyone - about my problems would just ruin her day.

"You look wonderful," said a familiar voice tinted with a familiar Russian accent. Dimitri stepped in the room a smile playing on his lips. "We should head out soon. Are you ready?"

I glanced at the mirror. "I wish the dress was not as loose," I sighed, pulling on the fabric. "I didn't remember it being so loose at the last fitting. Maybe the dry cleaner messed up the cleaning and the fabric loosened."

Dimitri dropped his smile and his eyes filled with concern. "It was exactly the same, Roza," he said taking a step toward me.

"Huh"

Dimitri opened his mouth as if he was going to say something else but instead, he drew a long breath. He held out his hand. "Roza, we should go."

I nodded but didn't move. I kept on pulling and pulling the fabric. "It's really loose," I whispered. "Too loose."

"Rose," said Dimitri from the other side of the room. I didn't turn around. "Rose," he repeated. Suddenly, I felt his hand on my wrist, gently pulling my hand away from my dress. "Rose, look at me." I turned around to face him but stared at the floor instead of his eyes. "Roza, look at me." I sighed and looked up into his eyes. His hands trailed down my arms and came resting in my hands. "Roza, talk to me. I know that something's wrong. So why won't you tell me what's wrong?"

I sighed and grabbed his hand. I pulled him to the bed and we both sat down. I looked into his eyes. Dimitri was the love of my life. He was the one whom I told everything, so why was it so hard to open up about this? There was something wrong with me. Something I didn't understand and that scared me. Vika's wedding wasn't the reason I was keeping my mouth shut. I was scared and I didn't like to be and that was the real reason.

"I didn't want to say anything," I said quietly. "I guess it was part because of Vika's wedding and also because, well, it scares me, Dimitri. There's something wrong with me, I don't know what it is but I don't like it and I can't fight it."

Dimitri wiped a tear that was rolling down my cheek and brought me closer. "Oh, Roza."

"And I know that the weight I'm losing isn't healthy but every time I look at food, I don't know, it just start picking at it and I can barely eat anything. The last time I forced myself to eat normally I ended up throwing up." I looked up at him, desperate. "I think it might be the effects of spirit. Maybe they're coming back." My voice was trembling.

Dimitri held my chin up and locked his eyes with mine. "You're so strong, Rose. You'll get through this. We'll get through this together. We'll figure it out, I promise."

I nodded. "Okay." I gave him a weak smile and brought my lips to his. I pressed my body closer to his strong chest and felt my body relax every where his hands touched my skin.

Dimitri was my family. He was the love of my life and I knew that as long as he and I were together, we would conquer the world.