You'd be suprised if you knew,
How much I cared about you,
I've always had difficulty expressing,
For fear that I might be depressing,
I had long given up dreaming.
I accepted that it wasn't possible,
Even questioned my sanity for awhile,
Years passed and I stopped hoping,
As I had realized I was far too gone,
Far too lost to ever be found again.
That's when you showed up,
It was subtle at first,
I discovered a new fear,
You made me fear happiness,
It's funny when you think about it,
Who would fear something so trivial,
But I guess that's how fears work.
I was proven right when I got the call,
It was bound to happen,
I had expected it,
Yet it didn't stop my soul shattering,
You left like everyone else,
Yet you weren't like anyone else,
Losing you meant I lost a part of me,
For I'll never be the same again.
I've always feared caring,
Now I'd prefer dying rather than trying,
But my biggest regret would be fate,
I wish I told you before it was too late.
YOU ARE READING
The Blackhole
PuisiIt is a bunch if random poems that I have written in the past three years. It mainly focuses on feelings that I couldn't express.
