Nothing at all / General Hux X OC

Another battle

I had the rest of the day only for my self. Everyone was out , or at least thats what I thought,  but what can I know,  I spent all of my time in the medical room, I didn't go anywhere,  because. ..I simply couldn't, even though after a few hours my wounds were nearly done healing, I stayed in the same room laying on the bed...daydreaming.

"I wonder how my family is doing..." I asked my self while playing with a loose strand of my hair"They probably miss me, at least I hope they do..." I tried imagining how Refiroa looks like, or could look like today, but no matter how I tried my mind kept wandering to one person. Even how much I tried to distract my self from that question, I kept getting back until I finaly decided to face it...

"What will I do with that little... crush...I'm having..." I was so scared at this point that he will find out about it and will make fun of me because of it." What if he notices that I'm blushing or I do something that would indicate that I...l o v e him" I said "love" in such weird manner, like it would be a sin or something.

Hours passed and I still didn't know the answer to my question. If he was a regular person, the question wouldn't be that hard, but now, when he is the person who slapped me, shouted at me and for the love of God he is my boss!

I was in a weird mental state. Oh how I wished that I wasn't alone, if there could just be someone to take my mind off that super ginger.

And my cries were heard!

The one saving me from my misery was Koji, who, when he found me in a depressed state, without hesitation took action.

"Holly shit girl! What's wrong?" He asked while wrapping his arms around me " you seem more dead than than General Ginger!"

Shivers went down my whole body when he mentioned him.

"A...and..and why is he ...dead?"

"The deal didn't work out as planned, but what eva, what about you!? Ya still in pain? I still don't get why you jumped in front of him, he could've just die ya kno, no big deal."

"Don't ask me why I did that, 'cause I can't answer that myself and for my health, I think I'm almost good...just need to rest "

"You had the whole day to rest while we were were out!"I sent him a glare"..oke...oke...I'll leave you to rest than and come to wake you when we finally make it "home" bye."he said with a wink and left.

Maybe I was wrong and I didn't need company, or at least not his jolly company.

When our ship finally got, as we call it "home", Koji quicly escorted me back to my room and I didn't have the chance to see the general. He instructed me to get some rest, even though he new I got plenty of it on the ship.

"Believe me, you'll need a lot of energy tomorrow. Hux will probably still pissed and you will most likely be the one to witness it." He patted my shoulder and left me.

It didn't take me long to fall asleep, but all through the night I kept having multiple nightmares of Hux shouting at me, hitting me and repeating that I'm worthless. So when I got up, I looked really horrible , like I haven't slept at all. I dressed up and was getting back into my old routine.

When I left my room I met Anita on the way, she asked me how I've been, if it's good working with Hux and all of that stuff. I didn't really get into the conversation, even though she was one of the people on the ship that I enjoyed talking to, but right now my mind was invaded by thoughts of Hux.

Anita noticed that I was pretty stressed and suggested that we meet some other time soon as she didn't want to bother me anymore. Although I said to her that she is not bothering me or anything and I love taking my mind of of work, she just patted my shoulder and added: