Life or "Death"

First day back

I've been in my room since I left the hospital. I've been drawing for the most part. I can't dance anymore. I could sing but I don't know what I would sing about? I have a few talents. I can sing, dance, act, draw, and I love photography. I can't really dance anymore and I can't do photography because I can't go to the places with the best photo's I won't sing because Bella loved singing with me. Now all I can do is draw. I don't realize what I'm drawing until I'm finished and I realize that I drew Bella.

I throw my Journal towards the closet door and start crying. Everything I do brings me back to Bella. I cry and cry until Charlie comes in to tell me Lee is here to help me get ready. I'm only comfortable around her. I try to hide my tears before Lee comes in but as I dry my tears, more tears fall. Lee walks in and see's me crying. She walks over and gives me a hug and says "I know it hurts I can't imagine what you're going through." she then gets up and walks to the closet and see's my journal open coincidentally to my last drawing. The one of Bella.
She closes the journal not saying anything which I'm grateful for and opens my closet. She picks out an outfit and helps me put it on.
"Thanks Lee..." I say so soft I don't think anyone could hear me but to my surprise she heard me and said "No problem."
"How did you hear me?" I asked. She froze for a second then said "I have great hearing."
"Let's get you in your wheelchair." she says. I nod quietly. She somehow lifts me up and puts me in my wheelchair.
Dad made the house wheelchair accessible with ramps. Lee rolls me down and I say "Can we just go to school. I don't want to be late."
"Don't you want to eat?" she asks. "I'm not hungry." I say. Charlie left after he let Lee in. "Ok..." she says.
She brings me out to the car and puts me in the front. She puts my wheel chair in the back. "Hey Lee?" I ask. "Yeah Kay?" She asks.
"Do you think when my legs are healed, maybe I could go to physical therapy to try and walk again?" I ask.
"I think it's possible. But remember there's not a good chance that it will happen. But if you do choose to do physical therapy I will support you the whole way." she says. "Ok thank you" I say. By the time we end the conversation we're in the school parking lot. As Lee parks, I see Jasper waiting for us. Lee gets out my wheel chair while Jasper comes over and helps me out of the car and into the car. Jasper sets me down gently. Then he says "I got the my schedule changed so we have the same schedule now." I don't know why but my heart flutters at the fact that he will be in all of my classes. He starts wheeling me up the ramp and I notice everyone is staring. I look down trying to block the stares of sympathy towards me. "Jazz they're all staring..." I say. When I say that he starts walking faster. "Kay?" Jazz asks me. "Yeah?" I ask.
"Will you be my girlfriend?" He asks. I am shocked that he asked me that my jaw dropping to the floor. All I can feel is fireworks. "Yes" I say. He smiles at me and for the first time in a while something goes right.
"We should probably get to class" I say. He nods and wheels me to class.
When we walk in, EVERYONE stares at me with pity. I decide not to wait for Jasper to wheel me around. I go straight to  the new handicap desk for me in the back of the classroom. There was an empty desk next to me that Jasper could sit in.
The teacher came in and stared at me for a minute before getting the lesson started. I felt like an outsider. I then felt a wave of calmness and welcoming. I had no idea where it came from but I welcomed it. The day went by slowly. I had to get used to the stares.
Lunch came rolling around. (no pun intended) I saw a girl sitting alone so instead of going to have lunch with the Cullen's I rolled myself to her.
"Hi" I say. "Hi" the girl says shyly.
"What's your name?" I ask.   "Britney" she said. "I'm Kayleigh" I say. "Can I call you Bree?" (A/n. Hint hint) "Sure" she says. "Can I call you Kay?" she asks. "Sure" I say, seeing that people call me that anyways. "Sorry, I haven't noticed you before" I say putting my head down. "It's ok. I just moved to the school. I guess because of everything that has happened no one would notice me." She said looking down at the end. "Would you maybe like to go to Port Angeles with me?" She asked. "My mom wanted to go shopping and said I could invite some one to go with us." she said. "Sure. That is if you  don't mind a wheel chair." I say. "Oh it's no problem" she says.
"Ok when do you want to go?" I ask. "Would tomorrow be ok with you?" she asks. "Yes, thats fine" I say.
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The rest of the day went by rather quickly. I couldn't wait for tomorrow. It would be so fun.