Sugar

2. Secret

Even though I lived rich for most of my childhood that doesn't mean it was the best. My momma was a workaholic before an alcoholic. And dad was the same way. Always damn working. They had a cousin of mine baby sit me and Kyle. She was way older than us probably in her 20s when I was 6 and Kyle was 2. Every time she watched us she would always bring niggas over. And one day she left her man in the house with Kyle and I while she went to get McDonald's or something. And he let Kyle watch cartoons until he fell asleep. Meanwhile I was playing with my tea set. He came in my room and shut the door. I didn't think anything of it cause I was 6. He sat down and had "tea" with me and my stuffed animals. Then he told me it was time for bed. So he helped me into my pjs. But before I could get my pants on he was on top of me. I screamed and told him to move but he didn't listen. He ripped my underwear off me and raped me. And it didn't happen once. I think my cousin knew he had a thing for little girls cause every time she brought him over she would leave for about an hour. And come back. But those memories will be branded in my mind forever.

I got up early as fuck the next morning. All of us have school today. I got out of bed and checked on my siblings.
Nyah was still sleeping and Kyle was getting dressed.
I walked in the room and woke Nyah up before getting her ready. I gave her a bath and helped her brush her teeth.
Once she was ready I turned on the tv so she could watch it.
I went in the bathroom and freshened up. A sharp pain hit me in my lower stomach. I crouched on the bathroom floor in pain. I had to crawl in my room.
I fought the pain and got dressed. Then I popped the last of my pain killers.

At school
I sat down in the cafeteria and ate breakfast. Thats the best part about school. We get two free meals and I only have to worry about dinner. I ate my cereal. My best friend Ty sat down next to me. Her full name is Tyesha but she doesn't like it so we call her Ty.
"Hey girl." She said.
"Hi." I replied.
"What's wrong? You don't look like yourself."
"Rough night."
"What happened?"
"Couldn't sleep."
"Girl you want me to sleep over?"
"No Ima be good."
"You sure?"
"Yeah."
"Girl!" Ty squealed.
"What?" I replied.
"Kj!" She squealed. She pointed at him. Why is he walking this way?
"Is this spot taken?" Kj asked as he pointed to the spot directly across from Ty. I've had a crush on Kj since forever. Just the sight of him makes me sweat.
"You can sit there." Ty replied.
Kj sat down in front of Ty with his breakfast. Kj is one of those fine ass niggas who ain't popular. He's more of a middle class hood nigga. If that makes sense.
"What's up Heaven?" He asked.
"I'm good." I replied trying to be care free. But I'm not good. Not at all.
"Cool."
"Heaven I forgot to show you something." Ty squealed.
"What?" I replied.
She flashed the necklace her man got her. It has his name on it. His name is Jarod.
"That's your anniversary gift?" I asked.
"Yes bihh!!"
I could feel Kj staring at me.
"Girl I'm so happy for you."
"Thanks."
I looked over at Kj. He looks like he is ready to snatch me up.
"You good?" I asked him.
"Yeah." He replied.
The bell rang and everybody started scrambling to class.
"Can I walk you to class?" Kj offered.
"Sure." I replied.
I grabbed my backpack and we stood up. I smoothed out my loose green top and we exited the cafeteria. Kj and I walked down the hallway. We were halfway to my science class when he pushed me into the janitor's closet. The door was open so when he pushed me in I fell flat on my ass. Kj closed the door.
"Nigga the fuck? Let me out!" I shouted.
"Nah you gonna give me what I'm looking for." He replied.
"What you looking?"
"No my cousin told me about last night. I heard you sweet."
"What?"
"My cousin fixes shit in yo apartment."
"Oh fuck."
"Yeah now lemme taste that sweetness."
He licked his lips and walked up to me. Before I could pick myself up from the floor He cornered me. Oh Gosh. I screamed and hollered. Kj kicked me in my stomach. That sharp pain from this morning came back and hit me like a bitch. I curled up into a ball on the floor and started crying. Kj didn't care. He still took advantage of me.

During second period I walked out of the closet. Kj left before me but I was too numb to move. I walked down the hall and felt the pain again. I fell to the floor and held my stomach. I cried out in pain before blacking out.
I woke up in the hospital.
"What's going on?" I asked.
"Well the pain you were in caused you to black out. You were in pain because your uterus was pushed in your ribcage." The nurse said.
"How did that happen?"
"It usually happens to rape victims or people who enjoy rough sex."
"Damn."
"Did you get raped?"
"No."
I know I should tell the truth but I didn't. I never had the courage to tell anybody about any of my stories not even Ty.
The nurse scribbled on the clipboard.
The doctor walked in.
"I contacted your mother and she gave us permission to perform the surgery." The doctor said.
"Okay where is my phone?"
"Right on the nightstand."
I reached on the night stand and grabbed my phone.

Me: hey Ty. I'm in the hospital. Can you pick up Nyah and Kyle for me and let them stay by you until I get back?
Ty: sure but what happened?
Me: i will explain when you visit me. When you come to see me don't bring the kids.
Ty: okay.
I locked my screen.
"What time do I go into surgery?" I asked the doctor.
"In a few hours they will prep you." He replied.