deceptive facade

Decision

It is early morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! even by my standards.

My first thought was "What woke me up?"

I immediately listen for any sound from Isha's room.

Ya!,,,,........... 'Isha's room'..........

Although, its almost 2yrs, since Jahanvi moved out,

but still I have 'Isha's room' in our house. We were never able to give a different name to that room and Isha even think its her's only.

So!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its her's .............and we don't have any problem with it.

Now, I am up............ and unable to go back to sleep, so I decided to work a little.

I have this,,,,,,,,,one rather important meeting with our very old loyal and most difficult client , who, also, happens to be my and Sam's very good friend as well........ 'Pierre Lorache'.

He is closer to Sam than me. I am always like a third in their company of two.

But,,,,,,,,, and it's a big , 'but'for past year, since Sam was unable to do any site visits, so Pierre has no choice other than sticking to me or just loose us.

Handling him is a pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One more man to deal, 'who' think that Sam was better off without me. His reasons are different and I don't take it against him.

Initially, he gave me tough time..............soon came around .........

when he came to know that it was always me who was handling interiors.

He tasked me this time to give new concept for his salons interiors across Europe.

Opening his file, I started looking through various drawings and my presentation for the day.

Suddenly I came across, slide of setting sun through one of the windows.

I was easily able to imagine Sam and Sid in hospital like yesterday afternoon.

I am still puzzled at Sam's behavior.

Why now? ..............why? ..........why?...........why?

I still draw a blank there. I can see something is not right.

I get the kind of feeling you get, when you see a spider crawling on your body. This hollowness in my guts is killing me. I know, there is a change coming which will be like a tornado in my life.

I am not scared of change, because change is life.

This uneasiness is new!!!!!!!!!!!!

When I lift my head I see sun coming out. Delhi is not a city known for its beautiful sunrise. This clear sky and pink glow of rising sun , gradually and slowly, reaching every corner.

Taking a deep breath ,I lift my face towards the sun in hope of thawing those frozen thoughts in my mind. Maybe this warmth will spread through me, and melt all my doubts with it.

Though there are no ripples in my life. I am not able to find same spirit and lightness in me, which sails me through my worst days.

Taking a deep breath I prepare myself for day ahead. I am not a coward. I will face everything head on.

I turn towards Isha's room to prepare her for day and loose myself in day today hum dum or try to loose myself!!!!!!!!!!!

"Think as little as possible of yesterday's events", its my mantra for today atleast .

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"Pierre, I insist you decide now", I told him masking my annoyance on his dilly-dally attitude."we are already behind and any more delay will escalate the cost".

He looked from file and gave a sheepish smile. "I understand your urgency,,,,,,,,,,,,if only I can speak with Sam once."

I thought he is so obstinate. "well, I am going to see Sam after office hours, you are welcome to tag along" I couldn't control my sarcastic tone.

"Very well ,,,,,I will happily tag along, at the end of the day" replied Pierre.

With a curt handshake he left my office.