answers ; changlix [discontinued]

16-anybody

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i fear being alone

i can't sleep by myself

i can't concentrate by myself

right now i can't study

the images at the back of my mind keep coming back

flashes of the past.

i usually don't sleep most days anyways anymore since me and jisung broke up

i knew we weren't supposed to last long

i just held on

because i didn't want to be alone

maybe this isolation is payback for being selfish

for thinking about me and not jisung

but i know it will hurt more

i'd grow more selfish

and now i'm alone

wondering if everyone's forgotten me

or if anyone's trying to reach me

fuck algebra

fuck math in general

fuck school

fuck life.

where is everyone

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Jisung smiled at the boys thanks.

"I haven't been here in a while." he says, looking around at the bare walls, wallpaper ripping off and photos on the floor. He picked one up.

"Hey, why'd you tear this one off, it's of us?" Jisung pouted, showing the picture to the younger boy.

"That was out of rage. I took down all my photos. Even the ones with Minho." Felix explained, his eyes looking directly at the photo of him and Jisung.

"But there's still one up." The curious boy walked over to the picture on it's own, slowly realising it was the boy who kissed Felix's cheek, Changbin.

"Are you guys together?" Jisung questioned, forcing a smile.

"No, no. I doubt he likes me." Felix stuttered in shock.

"You like him?" The heartbroken boy's smile slowly faded.

"I don't know." He sighed, "I'm sorry."

"Why should you be sorry, it's nothing." Jisung widely smiled forcefully, his pain showing in his eyes.

Felix just sighed, sitting down on his bed. "I'm hurting you, I can tell."

"Don't worry about me, worry about yourself. Look at the state of you, your eyes are so red. Your wallpaper is almost gone. Felix, you promised that you were better."

"That was until I got locked into my room for more than twenty four hours. Alone. Without anyone."

Jisung walked over to the boy and hugged him. "Did the nightmares occur last night?"

"No, I didn't sleep." Felix shook his head, his eyes wary and tired.

"I'm here now. Go to sleep."

Felix nodded, letting go of Jisung's grasp and lying down on his bed, as the older one smiled, making sure he was comfortable and stroking his hair.

Soon enough, Felix was asleep, thinking he was under the protection of Jisung.

But in the morning, a whole different person was in his room, a figure he could recognise. A figure he loved.

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felix from chem: hi is this changbin?

You: um no its binchang
You: who are you and what are you doing with felix's phone

felix from chem: binchang????
felix from chem: it's jisung.
felix from chem: felix needs you here
felix from chem: come to this address and i'll help you get through the window

You: i was joking but ok its binchang
You: this sounds dodgy
You: it's 5am
You: and a window?
You: is this really jisung

felix from chem: his parents will slaughter you if they see you
felix from chem: i'll explain everything if you get here
felix from chem: i'm sure felix trusts you.

You: hm
You: show me felix
You: and say changbin is dark
You: just so i know this isn't a scam

felix from chem: wtf
felix from chem: but the poor boys asleep.
felix from chem: i'll do the second part
felix from chem: [video attached]

You: is that a picture of me behind you?

felix from chem: mhm.
felix from chem: it's felix's room.

You: (,:
You: okay
You: send me the address

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