forgiveness

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Janices pov

Im happy ckyra has started to talk to me more. I plan on making sure today goes well and hopefully we can put the past behind us and move forward

I have tried to talk to marco but he won't even give me the time of day. Right now my main priority is ckyra. I will work on him once me and her are good.

"You ready?" I ask

"Just give me 5 more minutes" ckyra replies

30 minutes later she walks down the stairs.

"That was a very long 5 minutes" i say

She picks up her bag "you ready?"

"Ive been ready"

We walk out the door.

Since i dont have a car yet im taking kayla's black chevy impala

We get in the car and begin our drive to the mall.

The journey to the mall was pretty silent but it was a comfortable silence.

We are currently in Victoria secret because ckyra said she needs some more underwear.

"Put them strings down and go get some proper knickers" i said referring to the red and black thong she picked up

"There not strings, Your being extra" she says

"Who and what do you need them for?"

"Myself and to wear" she said in a duh tone

"Watch your mouth when your talking to me ckyra"

She walks away from me heading to the counter to pay for her stuff

"Dont walk away from me when im talking to you" i say raising my voice a little

She carries on walking away

We have are now in the food court

"So how have you been"i ask

"Fine" she replies bluntly

"Im trying ckyra i really am"

"I know and so am i. Its quite hard to forgive someone that has put you threw what ive been threw"

"What have i put you threw"

She palms her face "are you serious!"she says raising her voice making some people look over " because of you my childhood has been ruined. You let that nigga come into our family home and abuse me both mentally and physically. He fucking raped me! Not only once but multiple times. What kind of man prays on children. What kind of women lets someone do that to her fucking child! Huh? Im so fucking done right now. I cant even... i need to clear my mind" she says with tears running down her face. She gets up and runs away

I was going to chase after her but she had disappeared from my sight. I also feel she needs to be alone right now and im sure my pressence wont make anything better.

I sigh. Im ashamed that i brought tyreeke into my home and let him hurt my daughter. Although i didnt really know anything about him hurting her i was still wrong because he was abusing me at the time. I had an inkling about what was going on because ckyra seemed to have bruises on her every now and again. But i was to afraid to say anything to tyreeke because i was worried he might get angry for accusing him and hurt me, so i ended up not saying anything. I then got sent to prison so i had to leave him with the kids so they didnt get put in care. My few family memebers that i had were all far out of state so that was out of the question.

Ckyra seems to be extremly close to marco so im going to call him and tell him that she is upset so he can come and get her. I just hope that he picks up.