Pretend It's OK (FINISHED)

Chapter 1- Jade's POV

It's been almost a month since the day Perrie told me her story. July 27th marks 1 month. And after thinking it over I've decided to tell her my story. We've been in the studio with Jesy and Leigh but they don't what we've been talking about and Perrie and I have been writing little bits, both together an apart. She knows some of my story, the smallest part imaginable. I don't really know if she's ready for this but it's only fair I tell her. It's probably been playing on her mind knowing I've been through something but not knowing what. It's still so hard for me to acknowledge that someone so amazing could have been put through so much at such a young age. Perrie keeps saying that it's over now and you can't change the past, only learn from it. She's stopped cutting, not just for me but also for the fans. It's too hard to cover it up now. And yet the same nightmare haunts me. Always the same one and I can't do anything about it. Pez hasn't noticed that I haven't been sleeping, or if she has she hasn't mentioned it yet. I know she worries about me, all the girls do. We all worry about each other and it's only a matter of time before one of them notices how tired I am. I hate lying to the girls when they ask if I'm okay. Leigh is still kinda oblivious to my lies but I think Jesy is starting to get suspicious and she's almost impossible to lie to. What am I going to do?

Authors note-
Hey gorgeous people sorry it's been so long. I know this is a short update but I wanted to give you all something to read. I'm not sure how regularly I will be updating this but I do know my next chapter is going to be Jade's nightmare so I can get started on that. I have a few exams coming up but I promise I will update whenever I can. If anyone wants to talk to me about anything, message me on Instagram as my Wattpad messages are messed up. My Instagrams are:
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Jade xx