The Light. [Troyler]

Chapter Twenty Seven.

Chapter Twenty Seven. 'Finding him.' 

Tylers POV

I wake up suddenly as my eyes shoot open and the first thing I notice is the bed and the now unfamiliar cold and empty feeling it contained. There was no bright eyed boy laying beside me asleep or playing with my hair or just intertwined with me. Worry and sadness fills my whole body at his absence and I can already feel the tears appearing in my eyes even though I could have sworn they  were all out of my system. 

I search around for my phone and when it's located I see I still have not one thing from Troye and that everybody else seems to relate to that with their messages they have sent me, informing that they too have not heard from the precious boy. 

I groan when I realize it's only seven thirty in the morning but despite my efforts to sleep throughout the night and my exhaustion running deep inside of me I couldn't bring myself to close my eyes. I only could get around two hours of sleep but sleeping didn't seem right with my baby somewhere alone, probably crying, and not knowing how much I love him and yes, I do love him.

It took me some time and I'm sure I've probably told myself this before but now I know. I know that I love Troye and I am no longer afraid to admit it. I know because people have left before, so many people have but not one has made me feel like this, like they took not only a part but all of me with them only to leave a broken shell of me lying on the floor. 

I love him and I want to scream it to the world. I love him like the waves love the shore, or how the sun loves the sky, or how Troye loves Nutella. I love him more than ranch or hair product or wifi. I don't even need wifi if I'm around him because he entertains me better than anything. I love him and I will never stop because I can't. I love him and although I just realized myself, I want the world to know it. I want Troye to know this. 

He needs to know that he is my sun in the sky or the water in my ocean. He is my ranch in a bottle or my wifi in my router. He is my heart and my happiness, my light in the dark. He's the only person that makes me smile like a fool and makes me happy at all times. There's so much to say about this boy that leaves me speechless but most importantly he is my everything, he's the one. 

There's only a few problems too this though. Right now, he is not happy which means I am not happy. He doesn't know that I love and adore every single thing about him. He doesn't know that I feel completely broken without talking to him and that I can barely function as a human. He doesn't know and I need to tell him.

First, I have too find him though. 

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Connor; "He's obviously not with any friends in LA then and you already checked practically everywhere. I'm almost positive he got a hotel but I don't know how you are going to find which one or anything." 

I immediately look up all of the hotels in and on the outskirts of town and make a list of them, feeling generally stupid for not thinking of this sooner. It's going to be hard as fuck and a lot of work to find him in a hotel but I have too. I know Troye wouldn't even think about trying to talk to me with how stubborn he is even if he wanted too. 

It's only nine in the morning now, after crying a bit more before dragging myself out of bed, throwing some clothes on, and giving myself a preparation speech for what I was going to say to Troye if I found him, I was on my way to find my TroyeBoy. 

 First stop, a small motel closest to my apartment. I walk in to see a shady guy at the counter but I knew I had to be friendly to get information. 

"Hi, how are you?" I beam.

"Mmmm." He shrugs. "Can I help you?" 

"Yes, actually. I was just wondering if you have seen this boy?" I ask him as I show him a picture of Troye.