The Light. [Troyler]

Chapter Thirty Five.

Chapter Thirty Five. "Intimacy - the act of connecting with someone so deeply, you feel like you can see into their soul."

Tylers POV

Troyes head way lying on my pillow as he looked at me. His eyes were aligned with mine as I got lost in his. Our legs were intertwined and his arm was around my waist, getting as close to me as possible. My hands were cupping his cheek, grazing my thumb over it softly.

I relished in this intimate moment, just us staring at each other comfortable in our own silence, our own world. I took in everything about him right then.

The moonlight and street lights shined through a bit from the window, leaving a small light covering his face. His bright eyes had a sparkle in them as they looked at me with something I could only describe as love in them. We've never told each other we loved each other but we knew it. We told our fans we loved each other in the most friendly use of the term but never to one another.

His full pink lips let out relaxed breaths and they mixed with my own. His body felt so right intertwined with mine like he was meant to be pressed against me and I was just half of a whole without him. His hand moved down and moved back up, pushing up my shirt slightly. He just rested his hand on my bare skin, his cold hand clashing with my hot skin leaving an amazing feeling.

He moved his head just slightly closer to me, leaving a small kiss on my forehead before scooting back to our normal position. A small smile was on my face in the content moment. Everything felt right in the moment, other than the undenying thought in the back of my mind telling me this was our last night like this.

I pushed the thought out of my head and found a distraction in the perfect boys lips, moving with mine in a tango. The familiar feeling of fire burnt my whole body in a mix of sparks and fireworks. His lips were softer than a cloud but his passion was deeper than the ocean, washing over me and pulling me deeper in love with him.

Just a touch from him could get my heart racing but now as there's not a place of empty space between us I've never felt more calm and relaxed as he was the only one who could make me feel like I'm on a cloud in heaven while sitting in hell. His body was home and I refuse to feel homesick. He was my light that I refuse to turn off.

When we pulled away breathless, Troye just went back to his normal spot still looking at me in the eyes. He brought his hand and grazed it over my cheek, sending shivers down my body. I memorized every shade of blue in his eyes, how they sparkle like a diamond, every emotion he allows me to see in them. I look down to his full lips, how they're turned up into a smile after seeing my reaction to him, how he nibbles on it when he's nervous, his bright white teeth that couldn't compare to a thing in the world. I just look at him, admire that this flawless boy is mine.

I know we need to talk about him leaving, discuss how I'm going to get a second of sleep at night without him curled beside me. We need to cry about it or fight about it or anything. We need to talk about how much we're going to miss each other but we already know. I can see it in his eyes right now. We need to schedule out Skype calls, or kiss, or make a huge romantic gesture but here we are. Why does it seem like this is all we need?

I just need to be by his side a few moments longer. I just need to see the way he smiles when he sees me getting lost in him, how his eyes sparkle every time ours meet, how he runs his fingers in his messy hair to try to fix it but it's already perfect. I need to feel his breaths even out as he cuddles into me or the way his heart beat picks up every time someone mentions our relationship or just me in general. I just need to be with him.

He takes his hand from my cheek to rub his tired eyes in the most adorable manner. When he's done he wraps his arm back around my waist and looks up at me with big innocent eyes that melt me under his loving gaze. It's nearing five in the morning and I know we have to sleep if we wanted to spend anytime together before his flight took off. It could be just the way he let out a cat like yawn and rubbed over his eyes again making me want to do whatever is best for him though.

"Sleep?" He said in a sleepy tone that hurt my heart, almost like he was reading my mind.

"Go to sleep, babe." I say pulling him closer to me, his head on my chest. He shifted so his face was in front of mine before connecting our lips into a kiss that filled my heart. He pulled aw all too soon, pecking my forehead before dropping back onto my chest leaving a light kiss there too.

"Night, night," He mumbled, already drifting off after such a long day.

"Yeah, goodnight," I say quietly back, knowing he wouldn't hear me as he drifts into a land of dreaming. I bring my arm to wrap around his body that was pressed up to mine, his legs still intertwined with mine, as I bring my other hand to run through his hair as my mind goes wild.

I love him so much it hurts but it feels so right.

As his breathing evens out, I run my fingers through his hair one lest time before slightly moving my head up to peck him on the top of his head. I wrapped both of my arms around him now and he hummed unconsciously in content, snuggling more into my chest and pulling the covers up to his chin before wrapping his arm back around me unconsciously.

I drifted off to sleep with his breaths as my lullaby. My last conscious thought was that I already fell to far to climb back up so might as well keep falling.

If I'm going to love this boy it will be with all I have because that's just what he deserves. He deserves somebody who's so in love with him it hurts, that would crawl to hell and back for them and I would do that and more.

I truly believe I'm the one for him and I'm never going to let the dark encase around me to separate me from my light. I'll be sure he forever shines around me.

Ohi, cuties. I know this is shorter than normal but I actually really like this chapter surprisingly and I hope you guys do to, plus somebody asked me to update so here you go. There's not much too say so I hope you guys have a wonderful day and I love you to death.

(P.S. Don't even try to talk to me about TRXYE bc I will just burst out sobbing and I've been replaying the little snippet from Happy Little Pill since he released it. Don't get me started, I will literally cry. Same with Vidcon btw.)

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