Stay with me..

1.

They say plants can't survive without light. If they don't have light they shrivel up and die. They need of course food and water too but without light they go through depression and die. They end it. They die. And no-one cares. After all it's just a plant? It didn't do anything. And that's exactly what people would say about myself and Peeta. Sure mother would be upset, but she'd move on. Everyone would move on. And we'd be, eventually, forgotten about. And I'm worried that my little scene may come true, that Peeta and I will die. In this stupid cell, with no light but a single square window at the far end of the room, that's useless!
I'm glad though I was put with Peeta. He's the only one I want to be put with, the only one I want to be with. He now lays beside me with his hand round my shoulder whilst asleep.
I don't know how he does it. I can't sleep not a bit, without waking up and nearly waking up the whole prison. But even though Peeta tries his hardest to clam me I still avoid going back to sleep.
I stare up at him. He looks younger asleep, like he's never been trough what he has, like he has never even been touched, like he's a new person.
I lay my head on his chest and he stirs.
"Hey" he whispers
"Hey" I look up at him and smile
For a moment I forget what's going on, I forget that I'm lying in a cell in Snows prison, I forget we're at war. But it doesn't last long and I pull away from Peeta.
"Come back" he pleas "its damm cold in here"
I agree and go back to his side, laying my head on his chest once more, while he wraps his arms around me for warmth.
"What's going to happen" I ask letting my thoughts out
"What do you mean?"
"I mean what's going to happen to us Peeta? What will they do?"
"Katniss?" He says tilting my chin so I look into his eyes "there not going to hurt us as much as they already have, ok? And even if they do you can handle it, I mean your Katniss Everdeen, Girl on Fire, remember?"
I smile "What about you?"
"Don't worry" he says "as long as I can see you I'll be alright"
"What if you can't?"
"Don't worry" he smiles "I'll make sure I can!"
I gaze into his eyes and smile. He smiles back and lightly kisses me. When he pulls away I say
"I really do love you Peeta"
"I do too Katniss.." he says "now try and get some sleep, ok?"
"But I'll jus-"
"Shhh" he cuts me off "sleep"
"Ok.." I say turning from his eyes and back to my original position.
I feel him kiss my forehead and a few minutes later I dose off.

~Dream~

My face feels hot as I lie on the hard ground. The world around me is dark and I can't see a thing until a flickering light appears at my feet, causing them to burn. I try to get up but I can't. The fire continues rising up my body as I trash around trying to flee from the ground. Suddenly I hear a scream and am flung forward.now I can sit up but I wish I couldn't for the sight I see is horrific. There are piles upon piles of dead bodies laying around a busy Capitol street. Then voices start "you did this Katniss.." "You killed them.." I didn't I scream in my head but I can't say it aloud. Then I see Prim. My little sister. Being carried away by solider's. STOP I once again self scream but can't say it aloud. Then they lay her down on the ground and a man pulls out a gun. No I think. "PLEASE NO" im finally able to scream but it's to late. The man fires the gun and I try to look away but I can't. Prims body doesn't move but blood pours from her. Tears spring from my eyes as I watch her disappear into the ground. Then Peeta appears
"Peeta.." I cry "No stay away from me!" He says "your a monster!"
I start to scream and cry at the same time "NO PEETA.." I cry "come back.." Peeta runs off and I'm left with the man with the gun. "Go on" I sob " I'm useless anyway.." He lifts the gun to my head and BANG!

~End of Dream~

I bolt up screaming and sweating. I feel a hand on my shoulder and twitch until I find out it's Peeta.
"Shh Katniss, its over ok? It's over" he assures me
I turn around to him and look him in the eyes. I don't speak, I just stare at him.
He looks worried, like he'd break at any moment. My lip starts to quiver.
"Katniss?" He whispers
My eyes start to water
"Katniss are you ok?"
I slowly shake my head
"C'mere" he says gesturing to himself
I scoot over and let him wrap me in his arms
Then all at once I start to cry
"Shhh" he says rubbing my shoulder "its over ok, your dreams over"
"You r-ran away" I sob
"What why?" He remarks "From who?"
"M-me" I get out "because I w-was a monster"
"Katniss.." he whispers "I would never do that, anyways your not a monster"
"I am!" I say all of a sudden angry with myself " I killed everyone and it took a stupid dream to realise it!"
"Katniss you didn't kill anyone, ok" he says sternly "and your not a monster to me so remember that.."
My nose starts to run from crying so I sniff twice and then smile
"But I did Peeta...I killed Rue, Marvel, Glimmer, Cato, Mags, Finnick, Wirus, your family, Coin, Prim........" I start to cry again
"Katniss look at me" Peeta says annoyed "Snow killed them not you, he killed them all, so stop being so hard on yourself! Ok? Your not the only one suffering from a loss of a family member, my family is all dead! All of them!" Peeta stares at the ground
"I'm sorry.." he sobs
Suddenly I feel terrible Peeta's whole family are dead and I didn't even comfort him
There's a long silence until I whisper
"Peeta c'mere"
He looks up and before he can speak I crash onto his lips and kiss him
He's surprised at first but then kisses back and I once again feel the hunger I felt in the cave and on the beach
Fire engulfs me as I continue to kiss him and when we finally pull away I smile
He smiles back
"Did Gale do it like that?" He asks still smiling
"Oh shut up" I laugh
"Well? Did he?" He smiles again
"No" I say quietly
Peeta smiles to himself
"Thank you Peeta" I say
"For what?"
"For comforting me even though I didn't comfort you" I say ashamed
Peeta beckons for me to come to him, and I do
I lay my head on his chest once again
"It's ok" he whispers
I smile and drift off to sleep
***
I wake up normal, no screaming, no tears, it's weird?
I look up and find that Peeta is staring at me.
"What?" I ask
"No nightmares" he says
"What?" I ask again
"You had no nightmares" he answers smiling
"Did I?" I ask not believing myself
"No, no nightmares!" He assures me once again
I smile at him, lost in his ocean eyes,
I'm about to kiss him again but I reject, I can't just go around kissing everyone, so I just continue to examine him
Peeta is about to speak when the sound of a door comes from the end of the hall outside our cell
I rise from Peeta's side and stay dead quiet
I look at Peeta, he shrugs his shoulders and places his finger on his lips
"Be quiet" he mouths
I nod, but then I hear footsteps
Louder and louder
Then they stop
I hear the sound of a key unlocking a cell door, followed by the creak of someone opening it
Then there's a scream, a loud bloodcurdling scream
It was horrific as if the person was being stabbed to death
Peeta's jaw drops
"CMON!" Someone shouts
"NO NO LEAVE ME ALONE!" Shouts the familiar voice of Annie Cressida
There's bumps and thuds until it all stops
They must have knocked her out
I see the faint shadow of the figure pull Annie out the door but before he leaves he shouts
"YOUR NEXT MELLARK!"
I turn to Peeta as quick as a bullet
He already has his head in his hands
I can't watch, so I turn back to the bars listening to the faint cries of Peeta Mellark behind me....