Stay with me..

4.

I sit on a beach, the waves lightly crashing against my feet and Peeta sits across from me staring out to the ocean
Am I dreaming?
"I don't want to be the one who shoots first" I hear my voice say but it's not quite mine
I must be dreaming
Peeta locks a gaze with me
"What if none of us are the ones to shoot first" he says somewhat angry
We must be fighting
"We might still end up dead" My not so me voice says again
Peeta sighs deeply and then continues "Katniss I-I don't know what kind of deals you made with Haymitch but he made me promises too"
He looks to the ground and then back at me
"If you die, and I live I'd have nothing, nobody else that I care about"
"Peeta" I half whisper, my voice full of pity
Peeta removes a fancy looking necklace from his neck and rolls it back in forth in his hand
"It's different for you" he continues "your family needs you"
He opens the necklace and hands it to me, inside are pictures of my Mother, Prim and Gale
"you have to live, for them.."
I stare at the pictures for a second and the I meet eyes with Peeta
"What about you?" I ask again sounding pitiful
"Nobody needs me" he replies with a small smile
Something inside me clicks and I feel the tension once again that pulls me to this boy and I open my mouth to say what could only be the best thing to say at that very moment
"I do, I need you"

~~~

I awake from my slumber strapped down to chair inside a room with four bright white walls
My mind wonders back to my dream
Was it a dream or a memory?
Something inside of me tells me it was a memory but then again I can't be too sure
The sound of a door opening brings me back to my senses and cold chill runs up my back as a man dressed in all white walks in
He places a mask on his mouth hiding it from view and I start to worry why he would need such a thing
It must be what Peeta was talking about
My next "torture"
The man walks over to several computers, avoiding eye contact with me while doing so
"Who are you?" I ask sounding like a child "And where am I?"
The man smiles to himself but doesn't answer my question
"Where am I?" I ask more sternly this time
Still no answer
"WHERE-" I'm cut off by the sound of the door opening
And a woman walks in this time, dressed in all white like the man
"Hello.,"I whisper
The woman nods to the man before turning to me
"Morning Miss Everdeen, how are you?"
Morning? Was I out all night?
"What happened to me?" I ask "and where's Peeta?" I add the last bit without knowing but it seems right to
"Woah settle down" she answers "Don't stress yourself out, the results won't be clear then"
"What re-" I'm cut off by a needle sticking into my arm and I yelp in pain
"Thanks" says the woman, gesturing to the man
He nods but says nothing
I take a deep breath steadying myself for another injection
"What results?"
The woman smiles
"Start it up"
"Wh-"
But a screen appears across from me and I shut up
An image of Peeta shows and the room goes dark, so dark I don't even know if the man and woman are there anymore
"Peeta.." I hear a voice say, I'm guessing mine, but it's coming from the screen
There's no answer to my pathetic call so my voice shouts again
"Peeta?"
Then I see him
Peeta walks towards me, his face blank, emotionless
"Peeta" I say again, this time less depressed
It all happens too quickly....
Peeta charges at me knocking me to the ground and pulls out a knife
He swings his arm and pain jolts through my left shoulder
Again and again and again
Hit after hit after hit
"PEETA STOP!" I scream at the top of my lungs "STOP PEETA"
I try to push him off, using all the strength capable but it's not enough
Another screaming jolt of pain rushed through me and my vision goes black,very black.....
Until finally I pass out

~~~

My back hits the floor and I bolt awake once again, but this time inside of my cell
The vision I had not to long ago registers in my head and a shiver goes up my spine
Peeta wouldn't attack me,
Would he?
My thoughts go blurry again and my vision goes black once more
I close my eyes

~~~

"Katniss?" I hear a voice whisper
It's Peeta
I slowly open my eyes to face him but when I see what I see I wish I hadn't
Peeta has a long scar on his cheek, which from the looks of it, goes fairly deep and it's covered in dried blood
His face has several other cuts and bruises and his hair is mess and full of dirt
"Wha? What?" I start
"Oh my god? Katniss your alive! Oh my god I thought you were dead" Peeta exclaims and pulls me into a hug before I know what's happening
"What did they do to you?" I ask into his shoulder
Peeta pulls away but keeps his hands on my shoulders
"More importantly what happened to you? You just like choked and passed out in front of me, I thought you were dead!" Peeta half shouts at me at the end but he doesn't appear angry
"I don't know what happened....." I trail off, remembering the "torture" and the clip of Peeta
I look into his eyes and remove his hands from my shoulders
"Peeta did you ever attack me?" I blurt out, not knowing what other way to say it
"What?! No! I oh-"
"What?"
Peeta continues "I-I I did once, but I was hyjacked and I thought you hated me and were trying to kill me...."
I'm taken aback by his answer and I find it very hard to believe it, or maybe it's I don't want to believe it
"Oh?" Is all I manage to say
"Why what did they show you?" Peeta asks reaching for my hand
I pull away before he can grab it and a look of hurt washes over his face
But I just don't trust him I guess
"Nothing" I answer knowing I should tell him but I just don't want to talk about it right now
"Katniss..." Peeta pleas
"NOTHING" I shout
I don't know where this anger is coming from but I guess having my memory wiped has something to do with it
"Ok..." Peeta says and backs off
There's quite a long silence until I finally have enough
"Sorry.." I say
"It's ok" he answers "I know what it's like?"
"Really?" I ask
"Yeah, except my memory wasn't wiped, instead my memory's were changed"
There's another long silence
"I want to remember, I just don't know how"
I look into Peeta soft blue eyes and then he speaks
"Don't worry" he says "I'll find a way..."