Hidden Scars (Larry Stylinson AU)

Chapter 10

Louis could not believe what he had just heard. How could Zayn ask him to move in with Harry? How could he move in with Harry? Sure Harry and him were getting along but Louis didn't want to get pushed away. No matter how much he wanted to spend time with the curly boy, he just couldn't.

Louis is an extremely insecure guy. He had a secret crush on Harry, it being a secret because Harry didn't know about it. He could not live with him. What if Harry realizes that Louis is nothing but a big piece of waste and leave him? What if Harry gets tired of him? What if Harry gets fed up of him because of his panic attacks and mental breakdowns that happen at least once every week. It was hard for him to bear the fact that his parents stopped caring about him, he loved them so much. He couldn't be able to bear that Harry would stop caring once he understands that Louis is good for nothing. He doesn't want to lose yet another person he likes.

"Louis! Louis! Talk to us! Louis!" He heard Zayn's voice and his eyes met Zayn's brown ones.

"Are you alright? Say something please!" Zayn was literally begging. He knew very well that Louis was over thinking and over thinking always led him to crack. He had to divert his mind immediately, before it was too late.

"Can't I be alone for the time you are gone?" Louis' petite voice made Zayn think that he might cry any second. Harry right now had no idea what to do. He thought it'd be best to stay quiet for the time. He didn't want Louis to think that it was him who forced Zayn to ask Louis this question.

"Louis, no."

"I want to be."

"No. That's not happening."

"Why not?"

"You're making the difficult for the both of us Louis. Just listen to me." Zayn said sternly.

"I can take care of myself! Quit treating me like a baby!''

"Quit acting like one then!" Zayn didn't want to raise his voice but Louis left him no other option. Harry was just there, battling between saying something or not.

"Don't you trust me on my own! I lived alone before I moved in with you!"

"And you know really well how well that turned out for ya!"

Louis stared at Zayn with anger. Zayn regretted as soon as those words fell from his mouth. He didn't mean to bring that topic up and he didn't mean to do it in front of Harry. Harry was confused, off course. He didn't know what Zayn pointed at that made Louis shut up and glare at him, but he knew better than to ask about it.

"You promised." Louis whispered. "You promised you wouldn't and now..."

"Louis, I'm sorry. It's not like I have anything under my hands. I'm doing what I think is best for the situation."

"Zayn you're only making it harder for me. And you know it."

Was living with Harry such a bad thing for Louis? It broke his heart knowing that Louis was trying his best to persuade Zayn into letting him live alone rather than with Harry, even knowing about whatever Zayn was talking about a minute before.

"You think it's easy for me? You think I don't give a damn about any of this? About you? Well guess again Louis 'cuz you're wrong."

"Zayn please..."

"I know Lou. I know. But please. Just for three weeks. I need to make sure you're aright. You mean too much to me and I want to do everything I can to know that my brother is okay."

Zayn's words sank into Louis' heart. My brother. Louis knew Zayn thought of him like a brother but he doesn't call Louis by it. He calls him a friend. Always has. Just treats him like a brother. But this turned his thoughts swiftly and he was looking into Zayn's eyes. There pleading silently so much that it was hard to ignore it. Harry by now was seemed to be far forgotten.