The Diary of Bellatrix Lestrange

No Fear

June 21st

I realize now how alone I am. Narcissa and Andromada have left for my grandparents, something I used to do. Now I sit at home, writing of course, but also thinking. Thinking about life, before all this, before madness. Before the wedding, and before the engagement. Before the dance. Back when I has the black haired girl, the girl who had no cares, and no fear.

That girl was still a child. There is always a shining light to every situation. This girl has Tom Riddle there for her, no matter what. It may not be love, but that girl used to stare, and speak to him, not personally, but this older, more mature girl does.

I'm grateful sometimes for that, and others I am not. That girl had one thing. That was freedom. I have none. Everyday is a secret, or else a viewing for someone else. It's all different. I'm all I can be now, stronger, smarter, more mature. I am all I can be, because Tom helped me find the power I only could have dreamed of.

June 30th

Mother found my diary today. She didn't get to far. Hopefully not as far as I panicked about. She needs to stop meddling with lives, before she ruins one completley

June 31st

She did it! All the things Tom put in the letter, she saw. I had it folded, put away, and she saw it. It had fallen out when she had picked it up. Everything!

Father was furious, and mother heartbroken. I can't live here anymore! I can't take this! It's dumb and stupid that I sit here, wasting my life, while they snoop around in others business and go to parties. If they only knew! I sit here, starring out the windows all day, writing and reading, while they have fun, with their snobby friends.

August 2nd

Cissy and Dromada came back, and now we are all together. I sometimes miss the things I used to do.