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Valentines

It's been a week since I ran out of the house. I have spent every second in my room, eating, sleeping and crying. Luckily my mam brought me food because otherwise I would starve.

my curtains stay closed.

I've tried everything to stay away from shawn that's why I don't leave. My mam knows how I feel but not why... I haven't told her about him.

I peak out my window some times to see shawn leaving in his car for recording or the gym, that's when I know it'd safe to go on a jog, to exercise but forget too. He looks very upset,i wonder why

I've lost count of the amount of times he knocked at the door, and watched him waiting outside but I never answered.

I don't want to hear the excuses, no one's ever left me quiet this sore.
I hate him but I love him. I want to hit him but I also want to kiss him. It's so confusing.

Its valentines day today and instead of spending it with the person I love, I'm spending it alone(again)

My mam is gone on a work trip and all my friends are in relationships. So I have nothing to do but mope around.
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I got up out of bed, I hopped into the shower to freshen up, throwing on a tracksuit I grabbed my duvet and pillows and brought them down to the sofa as it's so comfortable.

After making more popcorn, I sat down to watch my favourite romance film 'the Rebound', it's just getting started when there is a knock at the door.

Pausing the film I answer the door to be met with a bunch of roses on the step. I quickly grabbed them and bring them inside so shawn doesn't see me plus its cold , setting them down on the table I take out the card that was with them,fancy.

"to my love, happy valentines day

I know we are not speaking right now but I still want to tell you how much I love you.

Thinking back on the day you ran out, I know what upset you and as much as it was what it was, it wasn't for the reason you think.

I don't know if you read about camila and her new boyfriend, when you left the room we started talking about it, and how we were happy for each other , and we decided just to make sure we had no feelings so we kissed and in that moment all I could think about was you, even she didn't enjoy it. We are both very happy in our relationship.

I always said that 'when I feel the same about a girl as I do about music that's when I'll know I found the one'

Niki you are the one , I love you so much and I want to marry you so bad.

I hope you can forgive me and come back

Love
         , the cutest muffin in all the land"

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I quickly went upstairs and changed into clothes, I sprayed on perfume and grabbed the gift I got shawn for valentines... Before the incident in the house I had already bought shawn a Bob Marley vinal, I knew he'd love it.

I ran across the road and knocked on the door, catching my breath from running so fast .

The door opened to reveal a broken down shawn, tears running down my eyes and his. My heart broke in that moment realising he was just as heartbroken as I was. I seen a flicker of hope in his eyes, waiting for a response.

I smiled at him and jumped in his arms as he caught he and smiled too. He cupped my face and looked in my eyes, "do you forgive me" he asked, I kissed him and he got his answer he kissed back, there was so much passion , I never want to leave him again. I realise now how much love we have for each other. He's my fiancé.

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I know it not long but I was crying writing this chapter it feels so real.
I'm really sorry its so bad. Show some love.