Fragments Of A Broken Heart

Her last confession

"I can't believe that this is really happening! Am I dreaming right?" she said with excitement while looking at the bright stars above us. Her wine glass almost fell in her hand, an evidence that she's really nervous at the same time, excited.

I smiled as I'm seeing how happy this girl beside me.

Finally.

"No, you're not," I said, "tomorrow, you're gonna walk down at the aisle and meet the man you're going to spend your life with. As your long time and most beautiful bestfriend, I am truly happy for you girl." I hugged her and my eyes started to become wet. I looked above to stop myself from crying. Gosh! I don't want this girl to see me crying.

"Thank you beks!" she said, "But it would be better if it's you right?" she looked at me while smiling but her eyes seems sad.

"What do you mean?" I said with confusion. My brow almost met with what I heard.

Again, she look at the stars above, smiling like an idiot.

"Tonight, before I tie myself, I will make my last and greatest confession." She looked back at me with her heavy eyes. I suddenly got nervous, "Beks, I love you..." I almost jump off the building when I heard her sudden confession. We're on the fifth floor for pete's sake.

"W-wha w-what did y-you saaay?" I raised my brow again. I know that she loves me, I know that very well. But the way she said those words, it's different.

I suddenly can't think straight. Did I just misheard it?

"I said I love you not as my bestfriend. I love you more than that hahaha!" and she laughed like she said some corny jokes.

So, I didn't misheard it. I'm right...

Stress ate me in just a second. Gosh! This girl.

"A-are you kidding me?" I said, I walk around the terrace, trying to absorb what she said. I can't still believe it. "What? You love me? Are you okay girl? Is this some kind of a pre-wedding symptoms? Do you know what are you saying? My gosh! Tomorrow is your wedding you're crazy!!!" I said annoyingly but she just laugh at me. She even drink her wine while me, I'm being hysterical because of her unexpected revelation.

I know her lovestory with her fiancee. I even witnessed it, so how come that she loves me more than a bestfriend? It doesn't make sense!

"Can you please stop walking and just listen to me first?" I stared at her and slowly went beside her. I don't know what's with this girl tonight that she really made her confession a night before her wedding.

It's not awkward but I felt so uneasy. Again and again, she look at the stars above.

"You know, I hate regrets that's why I confessed tonight," she started "eversince we're in college, I already like you but I really did my very best to hide it because I know it won't work out. You're gay! I like you but I don't wanna lose you." I closed my eyes firmly. I don't know if I will get mad or what, I have so many questions with that short phrase but I chose to listen more.

"Our relationship as bestfriends were good, we know each other very well, we are a great definition of being bestfriends. Maybe because you're a gay and a guy at the same time, I forgot the thought of having a lover because you were here for me. Having you beside me makes me happy that it's okay if I don't have a boyfriend, not until I met him." She smiled and I'm not surprised by it. We're now bestfriends for decades and still counting!

"I love you, but not enough to fight for it. I know there's no chance that you will like me back because you have a woman heart inside your chest so I chose to hide it. For ten years, I became so happy and contented being with you as your bestfriend. I couldn't ask for more." She said sincerely.