karkats p.o.v
so its been almost a year since nepeta left us and i still feel like im the one to blame. I try to think positive again but its not really working. I think back to the days where she would just hug me for hours and hours on end not wanting to let go of me... i really miss those times... i miss her. I never knew i could have this much built up in me just from one person being gone. since she *cough* "left" nothing has really been the same. equius came back and he is devastated about nepeta being dead and all i mean i am also.. but that guy knew her much long then i have so he is pretty torn up about it. sollux heard what happened and he is just lifeless now...this place is lifeless with out nepeta.
Some times i wish i could go back and hold her just keep her near me at all times to see if i could have prevented this from happening. i mean i can wish right? i still go over to her hive and clean it then make a mess again so it seems like she is still here... deep down in side i wish she was still here. when everyone found out they cried... i mean who doesnt cry about this kind of shit has something messed up with there thinkpan. *he picks up a picture of him and nepeta at a county fair* GOD DAMN I MISS YOU *he says out loud running his thumb over the picture* WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO *his voice breaking while red tears treated to spill out of his eyes* I MISS YOU... *the tears slipped from his eyes as he said the words he never knew he would say*
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nepetas last goodbye
Randomnepeta feels as if she doesn't belong anymore she feels like no one cares. ever since equius and sollux left she hasn't been the same. the voices finally get to her.
