Karkats p.o.v
Its been a long time since I last saw your face, I have been in and out of hospitals now try to get help...I've seen therapists they have all told me the same thing, "it was your fault."
I really wish I could have been there with you. I still really want to end my life, but I know you would want me to move on and everything...but I can't.
The memoire of you still haunts my very being, nothing can every change that...I screwed up.. I thought that you were okay that you would be fine.
But I failed.
I FAILED YOU NEPETA.
Now when I sit back and think about what happened, I do blame my self... I should have been in that position... Not you, me.
Know I'm the most fucked up one in this whole group... Out of all of us... I should have been the one to kill my self. I should have been the one to die. But you were the one to go before me...
How am I suppose to do this? How!? You were the one to support me though all odds, though all of my bad mistakes, my break downs, I never got to repay you! WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO NOW NEPETA!! I CANT DO THIS ALONE AND YOU KNEW THAT you knew that.. All I ever do now is sit here and cry like a little wiggler...my arms are always bruised, cut, scratched, burned, anything... Its a nasty habit but it takes the pain away.
I
can't do this any more nepeta I need to end what I have started...
(TIME SKIP BROUGHT TO YOU BY MY NEXT BOOK!)
((Continue of karkats point of view))
"I'm finally gonna do it... I've waited so long to finally see your face... Nepeta I'm coming home.. I promise this time I will keep you safe... "
I held the gun I got from strider, my heads are shaky and sweaty.. Nervously I started raising the gun to my head slowly.. But steady. The barrel of the gun to my temple I looked at the door open
((Cliff hanger!!!!!!! Yeee))
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nepetas last goodbye
Разноеnepeta feels as if she doesn't belong anymore she feels like no one cares. ever since equius and sollux left she hasn't been the same. the voices finally get to her.
